Girija Devi
Varanasi, India
Girija Devi (8 May 1929 – 24 October 2017) was an Indian classical singer of the Seniya and Banaras gharanas. She performed classical and light classical music and helped elevate the profile of thumri. She was dubbed as the 'Queen of Thumri' for her contribution in the genre. She died on 24 October 2017.
The Big Three
- Sun Taurus
- Moon Taurus
- Rising Time Unknown
- Sun Soft Pluto
- Mercury Soft Uranus
- Mercury Soft Moon
- Venus Hard Mars
- Venus Soft Jupiter
Birth Details
- Date
- May 8, 1929
- Time
- 12:00 (approximate — rising sign not shown)
- Place
- Varanasi, India
- Coordinates
- 25.3189° N, 83.0128° E
- House System
- Equal
Birth Chart Report for Girija Devi
Your Sun Sign
Sun in Taurus
Patience is the virtue parents and teachers would always remind us of when we were in a hurry. Yet in our modern-day, broadband, instant world the intelligence of patience seems as if it were a relic of a bygone era. The pace of life is high-speed, everything needs to be available as quick as possible or else it has no value. As nature and her natural rhythms are replaced by technological and man-made cycles the understanding of the value of patience wanes in the culture. Astrological wisdom has not forgotten the virtue of patience for it is deeply implanted in the earthy sign of Taurus and flowers regularly in that sphere of the zodiac. Taurus is the astrological sign most closely associated with the pace of nature and inherently knows its rhythms, its seasons of growth as well as its natural developmental cycles. This is why you might strongly identify with nature’s bounty, drawn to working with plants, food or natural fibres. Your natural flair might develop into a hands-on profession like a potter, a gardener, a chef.
Closest to Mother Nature, Taurus knows there is no sense pushing when it is time to hold on or move forward when the light is red. With your Sun in Taurus you are endowed with the basic instinct of common sense, a faculty not so common in a high tech, artificial world. You innately know when it is time to dig the heels in and wait for the right moment to charge. In the meantime there is a creative waiting period and this is accomplished through patience. You have a deep respect for quality and worth and what can be accomplished through perseverance. You learn to treasure your resources over time, and know that value is added in the long term, not the short. Therefore you are a hardy investor in long term markets, real estate and any asset that will gradually appreciate over time being suspicious of incentives that have no grounding in values.
Your attachment to the long term also applies to friends and family, being fiercely loyal and trustworthy in relationship. Any time and effort spent in helping others is returned to you. You may be slow to get to know but you forge deep bonds over the course of time. Once formed these bonds are almost indelible. You have the patience to handle the most difficult child, the most demanding client or the most annoying neighbour. Unruffled they are able to remain calm and present in most situations, not backing down or giving in, but allowing the problematical situation to pass. This is an excellent skill for anyone in a busy managerial role or in crisis care. The hospitality industry often requires such skills.
Surrounded by the hectic tempo of modernity you need to create a pasture of peace in the midst of all the chaos. Your screensaver image could be a meadow of beautiful spring flowers, a waterfall, a palm tree or a peaceful natural setting. You need to bring life into an over-crowded office space with exotic plants or adorn your apartment building with pots of colourful flowers. Eventually it is this pace of being able to slow down, stop and smell the roses that supports your success. There’s no rush, as internally you ultimately know that you need to build one layer at a time. Your building plan is from the ground up, a floor at a time, season by season. It is this gathering of strength over time that becomes a powerful ally and contributes to your resourcefulness. With the Sun in Taurus your secret to wealth accumulation is your steadfast pace and innate virtue of patience. To find your vitality and spirit and to feel soulful in the world you need to strive to find the qualities of loyalty, perseverance, consistency, stability, solidity, reliability and trustworthiness on your vocational path.
Your Moon Sign
Moon in Taurus
With your Moon in Taurus your need for security and stability is high. In your daily life you would prefer a stable environment where you can settle and not be rushed or surprised. It is important to know what you are meant to be doing; therefore in any job it would be necessary for you to take care of these needs. You also need to feel valued in your work and that you are providing an essential service through your tasks, no matter how routine or repetitive they are. Therefore income is an important consideration for you, as it is necessary to feel that you are able to support yourself as well as speak up when you feel it is time for a raise or promotion. Since you are committed to the long term, you need to proceed along the career path step-by-step. You also need tangible results in what you do and be able to monitor your own development.
From an early age you were instinctually drawn to nature and content to be surrounded by its natural beauty. To care for your soul in the tasks of an everyday life, you need to be comfortable and secure in what you do and where you are, involved with the sensual aspects of life. You need to nurture your self through what you do; if you do not find this security through your daily life you might find yourself drawn to food and pleasure as a replacement.
If you are drawn to the nurturing professions then your Moon in Taurus is instinctually drawn to a hands-on sensual approach, such as massage, aromatherapy, chiropractic work, nursing etc. You may be drawn to your vocation due to sensual urges. For instance if your particularly enjoyed the sense of touch, you might consider massage; if it were sight, you may be drawn to design or if it were taste, you might have an innate flair for food preparation and cooking.
Your Rising Sign
Ascendant in Scorpio
When your Ascendant resides in the Zodiac Sign of Scorpio you are destined to learn some lessons through the sharing of resources, including money. For this reason you need to be more cautious than most before sharing your resources and certainly before borrowing money from someone else. Debt is not your friend. You're shrewd, resourceful, perceptive, secretive, proud, and reserved. All of this is true when it comes to the subject of money as well. So is your purpose aligned to money? Only in so much that you are destined to learn about material, emotional, intellectual and spiritual wealth. You are more aware than many of the depths and heights of human experiences. Your purpose is to learn how to communicate your wisdom to others without intentionally causing harm. The key to achieving your true purpose is to act with integrity at all times. You have a strong will, which is best applied to achieving positive results rather than to the thoughts of jealousy and revenge, which sometimes might linger in the back of your mind. The insights that you gain from any early age are invaluable, and can be shared with others in a way that benefits all concerned. True joy comes from sharing the highs and lows of other people and them regenerate their spirit. If you would like to focus on a positive affirmation connected to money then with your Scorpio Ascendant you could use this one from “Creating Money – Keys to Abundance” by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer “My value and worth are increased by everything I do”.
Planets in Signs
Mercury in Gemini
The planet Mercury in the zodiac sign of Gemini indicates what a chatterbox you are. You do not mean to prattle on and on. It's just that you do so love the art of conversation, exchanging ideas with other people, and catching up on news. You're a fast talker, with a keen interest in most subjects. You enjoy books, letters, magazines, the media, computers and anything else that helps you learn and communicate. You also like to network, linking people from different walks of life, and giving information gained from one source to the next. For this reason you often find that you're the common link in a chain of quite different friends. You enjoy education of all forms, but may suffer in early education through an inability to sit still and listen. As you grow older you're likely to excel in your education because of your enquiring mind and intelligence. Astrologically speaking, the planet Mercury is considered to be strong in its rulership sign of Gemini. This means that you can benefit from your many interests. At times you find that your thoughts are scattered, but once you've managed to focus on your subject you can excel, particularly in fields such as teaching, writing, communications, and networking.
Venus in Aries
With Venus in the sign of Aries you'll pursue a partner ardently and hastily, preferring to be the initiator of the relationship rather than the recipient of someone else's plan of action. Initially you've great enthusiasm for your loved one, and it's important to keep the spark alight throughout the relationship. For you enjoy a challenge in your relationships, and need to be wary of losing interest after the initial excitement of the chase. You do well with a partner who allows you plenty of freedom, because you value your independence and freedom. If you become involved with someone who likes to be in control and limits your personal freedom your relationship could suffer. On the whole you find it quite easy to detach emotionally from a relationship. It's not that you're heartless or lack commitment. In fact you are quite ardent in your commitment. It's simply that when it comes to relationships you've an independent attitude. This attitude is also reflected in money matters.
Mars in Cancer
The planet Mars in the sign of Cancer indicates that you have powerful emotions which can be used to protect and nurture your loved ones close to home, or to fight for a cause further afield. You're not afraid to use your strength to battle against injustice on other people's behalf. You can also be very protective of small or defenceless animals. You can move mountains when your powerful emotions are channelled into a positive cause; however, you need to be wary of misdirecting your energy and becoming vengeful. You're so vehemently opposed to injustice that you can nurse ill-feelings towards those you consider to be the perpetrators of wrong-doing. This can result in outbursts of temper or plans for revenge. Although you're assertive, even aggressive, when it comes to protecting the feelings and rights of others, you're likely to retreat into your shell when personally hurt. You find it much more difficult to stand up for your own personal rights than you do for others. Astrologically the planet Mars is considered to be in a difficult position in the sign of Cancer meaning that you could have some difficulties directing your energies into positive pursuits.
Jupiter in Taurus
You've the planet Jupiter in the zodiac sign of Taurus in your birth chart indicating that "success comes to those who wait" could be a good motto for you. This is because you like to take your time and build up your resources slowly and surely. You're a dignified person who realises the value of planning ahead and working towards a goal. Persistence pays off and material wealth is often the result. You're a peaceful person, more likely to be seeking security through expanding your financial resources and property rather than travelling around the world. It's not that you don't like to travel, but simply that you're a little stuck in your ways and prefer to travel for a purpose. Adventure and fun can just as readily be found on the home front as far as you're concerned. It would also be fair to say that you're somewhat attached to a comfortable life, which you easily build for yourself. Reserved by nature you prefer to travel along known pathways rather than venture into new and exciting areas. At times you can also be a little over-indulgent, but then you can usually afford to be. You're also like to have fixed religious ideas, whether they be traditional or unorthodox. It's not that you're narrow-minded, but rather than you adhere to a set of beliefs which can be your guide through life. You're interested in practical spirituality. In other words you believe that it's important to incorporate your religious or spiritual ideals into everyday life. "Actions speak louder than words" may be an appropriate adage for your personal beliefs. For this reason you could also become a patron of a group or organisations.
Saturn in Sagittarius
The planet Saturn in the sign of Sagittarius signifies that philosophy plays a key role in your life, whether it's your own personal philosophy or an adopted religion. You're concerned about the welfare of humanity and this is reflected in your daily life. Your humanitarian approach to your life is likely to be reflected in your chosen profession, because you're more concerned with the welfare of others than with your own material gain. It also possible that you could have two professions. You're a trustworthy and loyal individual who is likely to benefit through your associations with other people. Although your professional reputation may suffer at some stage through your life, you're able to regain lost ground through your noble character. Generally you're an easy-going and optimistic worker, who is able to gain the respect of other people through dint of your own efforts. It's also possible that you'll alternate between enjoying public popularity and seeking seclusion from the outside world. This will depend largely on your environment and your personal circumstances.
Uranus in Aries
The planet Uranus was in the sign of Aries from 1928 - 1934. It's important to note that Uranus spends a long time in each sign, and therefore the interpretation applies to a generation rather than the individual. For a more individual interpretation you need to look at the house position of Uranus in your chart. Uranus in the sign of Aries indicates that you belong to a generation of people who show initiative and spontaneity. This generation is keen to break down old structures, in order to pave the way for new and creative forms in society. Your creativity soars when you're tackling new projects and using your initiative.
Neptune in Leo
The planet Neptune was in the sign of Leo from 1914 - 1929. It's important to note that Neptune takes about 164 years to make a complete cycle, spending about thirteen years in each sign, and therefore the interpretation applies to a generation rather than the individual. For a more individual interpretation you need to look at the house position of Neptune in your chart. Neptune in the sign of Leo indicates that you belong to a generation closely linked with the creative arts and spirituality. These two field can provide you with pleasure and inspiration, and you may be an inspiration to others through your artistic talents or spiritual beliefs. Extravagance can also be a result of your generation because of the extent to which pleasure is pursued.
Pluto in Cancer
The planet Pluto was in the sign of Cancer from 1914 - 1939. It's important to note that Pluto takes about 248 years to make a complete cycle, spending 12 - 32 years in each sign, and therefore the interpretation applies to a generation rather than the individual. For a more individual interpretation you need to look at the house position of Pluto in your chart. Pluto in the sign of Cancer suggests that you belong to a generation of upheaval in social systems. People born into this generation were born into troubled times which threatened their security and family. As a result this generation continues to experience changes in values, challenges to security and develops the ability to form new social concepts.
Chiron in Taurus
Financial matters are a part of your life that may cause you stress. At some point you may suffer as a result of poverty, or perhaps you just feel that you never have enough in the way of material resources. This might lead you to work hard to establish your financial security, but for a while you may have to work in an occupation that is not personally rewarding, which could undermine your self-worth. At some point you are likely to make some important changes in your occupation, so that your job better reflects your evolving values.
As you begin to question the values that underpin your working life and income base, you are embarking on a healing journey that could start with a longing for something more meaningful and worthwhile. Eventually, you may establish your own business.
You may be prone to experience physical tension or stress, particularly in the neck region. The tonsils, thyroid, vocal chords, ears, jaw problems and teeth grinding are some symptoms to watch for. Money worries may cause you ill health, including back problems.
It might be difficult for you to let go of some of the secure aspects of your life such as a regular income that you rely upon and to strike out on your own, but this might be the key to your wellbeing.
Embracing a more happy-go-lucky attitude will carry you forward in life with a more carefree and optimistic outlook. Massage, chiropractic, other tactile therapies, will support you as you learn to accept change and to love yourself.
Planets in Houses
Sun in 7th House
The progressed Sun moves slowly through the houses. The seventh house of your chart is currently emphasized indicating that significant relationships are important themes in your life. These could include your marriage union or important business partnerships.
Moon in 7th House
Partnerships are highlighted during this phase. You are likely to reassess your agreements with any existing marriage and business partnerships. Perhaps you have been spending a lot of time at work lately and now you realize that you need to spend more time with your spouse. On the other hand you may simply feel the urge to form a closer bond to your loved one. In some cases you may feel restless, eager for change in your marriage but powerless to instigate changes that more truly reflect your needs. If this is the case then you are likely to seriously reconsider your marriage contract. You need to communicate the depth of your feelings to your loved one. Counseling may also be beneficial before you make any major life changing decisions. If you are not married then you are likely to start searching for a suitable partner. Life as a single person is no longer as appealing and you are keen to form an intimate relationship. Sharing your life with someone else becomes a goal. Business partnerships also come under close scrutiny now. You are keen to ensure that your business partnerships are as productive as possible. Therefore you are likely to focus on making changes to any existing contracts, perhaps even ending an unproductive arrangement. This could involve legal proceedings. It is also possible that you consider a formal business partnership now. You have plenty of energy for gathering the relevant facts and figures, discussing possibilities and seeking the legal advice necessary before signing any formal agreement. The sign of your Progressed Moon highlights the manner in which you are likely to seek new partnerships. If your Progressed Moon is in a Fire or Air sign then you are likely to want to expand your horizons through your relationships, seeking adventure and inspiration. If your Progressed Moon is in an Earth or Water sign then you are more likely to be seeking comfort and emotional satisfaction through your interactions.
Mercury in 8th House
As the planet of communications progresses into the 8th House of your Birth Chart you may start to change your mind on some important matters. Gradually you see the light when it comes to certain issues. Secrets may be revealed, or you may start to gather new information for a new topic of interest. Resources are more readily available and this is a beneficial time to gradually reassess your financial investments, as well as how you invest your emotional energy. It is also possible that you gradually find the inner resources to tackle some tricky emotional, financial or metaphysical matters.
Venus in 6th house
Venus in your 6th house suggests that you need harmony, beauty and diplomacy to be an integral part of your autobiography. Therefore your task is to find a venue for Venus, goddess of love and beauty, to be used productively in the continuity of your daily rituals. One obvious way is through attention to presentation, image, dress and style, creating an aura of attractiveness about you. On another level you need your work place to be welcoming and pleasant. It is almost impossible for you to work in an unattractive environment unless the end product is of beauty or in a hostile situation unless of course it leads to reconciliation. Consistent with this placement is that your partner may be involved in some way with our work or you may even meet your partner at work. However this plays out, it is imperative to share your workday with your partner at the end of the day. To pay homage to this aspect of your character you need to beautify your surrounds.
The archetype of beauty seeks its expression through you in your daily life. Hence you might find satisfaction as a specialist in art, working in a museum as a curator, guide or consultant, or as an art or beauty therapist. The fashion industry, the perfume or cosmetic trade, clothing design, interior decoration and design, gifts and crafts, florists, all would serve to express this archetype. The bottom line is to be able to feel engaged with the creation of beauty. You also seek to balance and realign situations which contribute to you becoming proficient at mediation, personnel work, counselling or arbitration. The hospitality industry is also possible given your innate skills at diplomacy and your natural charm in a work situation.
Another way to engage with this archetype is through the senses. For instance you have an instinct for the right music in any social situation, the perfect outfit for the occasion, the fitting perfume to wear. Your skills at design, placement and decoration are heightened. Hence you might find a way to be able to bring these skills into your work and your workplace. One common manifestation of this astrological image is working with women and women's issues, whether that be in a personal setting with women, as a counsellor or an adviser, perhaps a doctor, psychoanalyst, politician or educator dedicated to women's issues. Work involving hairdressing, fashion, makeup, beauty products for woman are also possible. The powerful force of the feminine underpins your work life; alternatively you bring life and beauty to your work. The pleasure principle and work are entwined, therefore when you are out of touch with work or unfilled in what you do, you might seek pleasure in other ways like food or alcohol. Therefore weight and work might be synonymous; when you are happy at work, you feel attractive and valued but when satisfaction is missing you feel undervalued and unattractive. The secret to your success is finding work that values and appreciates your skills and resources. Being true to the archetypal essence of Venus suggests that your labours help to express your inner world through beauty and grace.
Mars in 9th House
Your spirit of adventure is likely to increase as the energetic planet Mars progresses into the expansive 9th House. During this period you are likely to seek activities that broaden your mind and open up new fields of possibilities. You may embark on a journey into new territory, learning much from your adventures. On the other hand you may begin an emotional or intellectual journey closer to home, exploring the expansive of the heart and mind. This is your time to focus on anything and anyone who lifts your spirit.
Jupiter in 7th House
This is a rare and significant moment in your life in connection with relationships. Someone who you meet during this period is likely to change the course of your life. All close relationships are likely to be rewarding right now, but most importantly marriage is highlighted. If you are already married then you are likely to experience deep and life-changing feelings about your spouse. Your love and commitment is likely to deepen and bring profound happiness. If you are single then you are destined to meet your life partner. Happiness and love abound and marriage is inevitable. There is also the possibility that the positive influence of the planet Jupiter shines its light in the area of business partnerships and contracts. These, too, bring abundance to your life.
Saturn in 2nd house
Saturn is in your 2nd house. To ancient astrologers this planet defined the edge of the solar system, the last visible god who wandered about the Sun. As such it became known as the boundary keeper and the authority that dealt out the consequences of inappropriate action. Placed in the sector of your resources and finances it is important that you use the conscious awareness of this archetype to support your attitudes towards self worth and value. This suggests that tradition, caution and security in how you approach the sphere of money and finances will be important. You are more a long-term investor than a short term one. Over time what you value will appreciate and grow, and you will derive a great satisfaction when your mortgage is paid off or your investments mature, as you value time and its natural process of maturation. Anything too fast or too sudden will not suit your investment style. Similarly when it comes to making your living you will be cautious and hard working as ethically you value what has been truly earned through effort and conscious application. Therefore your attitude towards material possessions will also be the same, valuing what is of good quality and well made, and mistrusting what is cheap and readily available. It is wise to build your financial portfolio over time, not rushing into anything or getting caught up in get rich quick schemes. Also it is prudent to recognise that you value employment where there is a strong structure, is well established and where you have room for advancement.
With the planet of consequence in your financial sector it is best you follow the letter of the law. Creative accounting, tax dodges and money laundering are not for you; if they are then you have an above average chance of being caught out and fined. Therefore it is important that when rules apply, you follow. Destiny has bound you to the system and it is in respecting the system that you find your wealth. It is also wise to take your own advice and heed your own judgement when it comes to financial matters as you need to learn to be an authority in this realm. While you seek approval and feedback in these matters it may not come. The reason is that you need to find your own way. Even though you would prefer that you were mentored, fate has placed the responsibility for financial success in your own hands.
Saturn may often be highly self-critical. This might suggest you introject negative feelings of self worth and internalise a lack of value contributing to your struggle to create a healthy sense of self-esteem. You may have been highly criticised earlier for your values and chastised for what you liked. And today you may still be rebelling against these standards through unconsciously participating with a negative version of your worth. Time to reassess. You need to take stock of your resources. Take a personal inventory and you will find a wide array of valuable resources that support you and need to be valued, including organisational skills and professionalism, self discipline, competency, being highly responsible, trust worthy, dedicated and respectful. Sound management of your resources makes it likely that you will earn your income in an executive or managerial capacity. Like the mountain goat you are adept at starting at the bottom of the mountain and slowly climbing to the summit of your success. However the key to this is maintaining your integrity, self-respect and valuing the process of time.
Uranus in 6th house
Revolutionary Uranus occupies the 6th sector of your horoscope. As suggested the planets in your 6th house are forces that seek expression regularly and need to be integrated into your lifestyle. Therefore your task is to find a working environment and work routines that satisfy the Uranian needs of change and modernity. Psychologically you need to feel independent enough to do your own thing at work. Without space and freedom to express yourself you feel smothered and hemmed in, which excites the urge to rebel or disrupt the routine. Imposition of rules, strict procedures and repetitive tasks do not suit you; you have a revolutionary aspect of your character which needs expression in the work sphere. When this does not find its expression you may unwittingly take on a role of rebel, odd one out or the one left out. However the archetype can be more consciously steered through work that is cutting edge, innovative, adventuresome and future orientated. Work designed to free us up, give us more time and space is your cup of tea. Therefore you might find yourself helping others with future planning, opportunistic investments, technological and innovative design, organisational change work, or any myriad of new employment that is dedicated to advancement and human opportunity.
Emotionally, you need your work to provide enough space and freedom to be able to explore your possibilities. You need to feel unattached, able to move on at any time, ready to take the opportunity when it arrives. You would not feel comfortable with a steady secure position for the next 20 years; therefore, you need to respect your need for freedom and change and not be of disservice to yourself by replacing the system's sense of security with your inner need for self-determination. You are more interested in the possibilities and opportunities of work than the realities and procedures. While you work well in a team, the spirit of the team is bound together by the task, not emotional ties. Therefore you need a clear distinction between your emotional life and your work life. They do not work well together in the workspace. You need to be free of emotional entanglements in the workplace. On the other hand you are able to find a succession of friends and colleagues through work, which become witness and often co-conspirators to your life work.
Physically the workspace also needs to support your need for space. Separateness is important. Without your own space your might confuse your need to be separate with separation, pushing co-workers away just to feel able to breathe. A light, bright atmosphere suits you and in a perfect world you would have the freedom to come and go as you please, change your work routine when you needed and have enough scope to be regularly mobile. Therefore it is important to honour this need for physical space and separateness or you become hyper, anxious and eventually reactionary. When work does not suit you either become restless, irritable and reactionary or slip into despondency. Recognise what you need to make your life and lifestyle work for you by being conscious of an overarching pattern. Then be free enough to let it happen
Neptune in 10th house
In your 10th house you have Neptune, which suggests you are called to seek a vocation that will satisfy the creative yearnings, the soulful urges and the need to be of service to others. Your career path is not clear, nor can you expect it to be. However what you can expect is that you will be caught up in the chaos of life and need to learn to feel at peace with letting this take you where you need to go. There is a greater intelligence at work in designing your vocation.
Wherever Neptune is located in the horoscope you experience the urge to be in contact with the divine. Being in the 10th house of your horoscope suggests you seek the divine in your vocation and follows its calling into the world. Of all the planets Neptune resonates with the longing to find soul, since it feels trapped and suffocated by the mundane, literal and tedious aspects of life. It longs for connection, and often languishes in a sense of divine discontent. Its urge to embrace or surrender to the divine manifests in longing, idealisation, fantasy and is often experienced as a calling to help others. Hence in vocational pursuits Neptune longs to help or find a way to express the divine. There are two main paths Neptune can express itself in a career.
The first is through the helping professions where the individual must surrender their own ego needs for others. The helping profession can include a wide spectrum of occupations, such as nursing, social work, hospital work, psychology, working with physically disabled or mentally handicapped individuals, the ministry and other spiritual vocations. Working with the elderly, the poor, the sick or the underprivileged, volunteer work, and all the intuitive vocations such as clairvoyants, psychic and spiritual healers, dream and image therapists all appeal to this archetype. Neptune is also associated with the drug and chemical industries and careers in pharmacology, as chemists, with oils & essences, in drug & alcohol rehabilitation or as a psychiatrist reflect this connection.
The other path is expressing the divine through your inspiration, creativity and artistic calling. Poets, artists, musicians, photography and camera work, film and video industry, dance, fashion and glamour industries satisfy some of the creative urges of Neptune. With Neptune in your 10th you may have the soul of an artist whose fate is often to suffer in a world that is devoid of soul. Part of the fate of Neptune in the 10th is to feel that you do not belong in the world, yet your destiny waits in the world. Rather than being caught in the exhaustion of ambivalence it is helpful to realise you need to express your creativity in the world, not expect the world to be your muse.
Mythological Neptune also ruled the seas and there may be a deep yearning to work with the sea in a variety of ways such as oceanography, in other aquatic occupations, boating or ships. However this is often metaphoric of the deep urge to express feeling and soulfulness in the world. With Neptune in your vocational sector you may have to surrender your expectations in order to find the path right for you.
Pluto in 9th House
The planet Pluto is in the 9th House of your birth chart indicating that study, religion and travel are challenging areas in your life. You probably have a powerful drive to discover higher meanings in life, but in some cases this placement of the planet Pluto can mean that you'll do all in your power to refuse to acknowledge a higher meaning. Either way it's likely that orthodox religion has played a powerful role in your life. On the one hand traditional religion may have acted as a positive avenue for your search for meaning in life, but on the other hand you may react strongly to the dogmas of more conventional religions. You've a strong need to form your own opinions based on your own experience and studies, rather than adopt another person's creed. Ironically you need to beware of becoming dogmatic in your personal philosophies. Depending on other influences in your chart it's also likely that academic study is a major challenge in your life. This could be that you intensely pursue your studies at an institute of higher learning, or it could be that you feel deeply disturbed by your lack of opportunities to pursue an academic course of study. Although you may have avoided travelling to foreign countries for part of your life, once you do travel you're likely to be changed by the experience.
NorthNode in the 7th House
In your horoscope you have the North Node in the 7th House and the South Node in the first. In the horoscope this is the axis of self and other, the delicate balance between being focused exclusively on others as opposed to yourself. Therefore this tug-of-war between you and others is an embedded feature of your vocation. Your chart suggests that you are more inclined to follow your own desires rather than compromise, yet the task in this life is to feel fulfilled and complete in your relationships, be they intimate or business partnerships.
To feel that you are an independent soul, free of the need to be involved with others becomes an unhappy deception, as this is based on a false sense of security forged out of a defensive sense of independence. Naturally you do have a strong spirit and a well developed independent streak, but your task now is to place effort and conscious will into relationships. Interestingly your time invested in others will be rewarded with realizations into yourself. The pathway in front of you suggests that the focus on others will bring out more of your own authentic self. Independence, freedom and adventure are innately aspects of your character and therefore you will not be able to lose what you own, unless of course you do not value it. Through relating and the interchange with others you discover the missing link to your sense of selfhood. Therefore in your vocational quest your partners, associates, colleagues and workmates play a significant role. You love a contest and the challenge now is to master relationship. Even when facing your adversaries, your challenge is to find the middle ground through developing reconciliatory strategies. Therefore vocationally you are well suited to managerial and leadership roles, as you have an innate sense of being able to take risks and confront difficulties. Effort is needed to remain focused on others; however, when this is accomplished the mix of entrepreneurial skill and personal interaction contributes to you becoming a leader in your field of endeavour. Interpersonal relationships are the key to your expression of individuality and through your associations you are able to make an impact on the wider community.
Chiron in 7th House
With Chiron setting in your Horoscope you are vulnerable to being drawn to individuals who need help. Whether they are marginal, displaced, wounded or despairing you find refuge for them in your heart. In Greek myth Chiron’s home was the training ground for disenfranchised youths who were orphaned and homeless due to the demise of a parent or because a tyrant claimed their home. Chiron himself was homeless, knowing how it felt to be abandoned and left, therefore was highly empathetic to the refugees who sought shelter in his care. A theme of displacement and being a refugee underpins this placement.
However, it was also in Chiron’s cave-home where the young learnt to be heroic, rising above their misfortunes to find their calling and become a champion. A pattern of fostering those who may be wounded or abandoned is your legacy. With Chiron in your 7th House it is important that the roles of helper, healer or administrator do not eclipse being an equal partner. You might need to learn the balance between being a helper and a partner, and hold the tension between your urge to help others and your own needs.
You may seek a mentor or healer in a relationship, being drawn to individuals who appear wise and caring. Yet underneath they might be damaged in their ability to relate to you on a personal level. Or you may be prone to recreating your role of healer and helper in your partnership by administering to your partner’s wounds. Therefore it is necessary to reflect on equality and exchange in the relationship as the astrological pattern suggests that you may be prone to confusing helping with partnering.
Perhaps the fate of Chiron in your 7th House suggests that the earlier wounds of not belonging or the primitive feelings of abandonment emerge in an adult relationship to be healed. Hence early feelings of marginality may arise in your relationship to challenge you with finding your place in relationship and a sense of belonging. No doubt Chiron in your 7th House brings feelings of marginality and wounding into adult relating. Wherever Chiron is in the Horoscope it locates where the heroic act needs to be applied. Therefore you are confronted with healing your feelings of exclusion and marginality in relationship. This is done through relating to a gentle partner who helps soothe your sores and allows you to belong to a system where you do not feel excluded or excommunicated. Your healing journey begins in relationships. No wonder you are an inspired counsellor, a helpmate and a healer of relational scars. Your kindred spirits know the pain of exclusion. That is why they embrace and love you as they recognise that you belong to their tribe. Like a true hermit your kindred spirits are on the outskirts, not at the centre of your community.
Nodes
NorthNode in Taurus
You were born with the North Node in Taurus and the South Node in Scorpio, which suggests that you have an innate ability to draw on the resources of others and utilise them for a beneficial outcome. Resources are important to you and the feeling that you can rely on your own assets and reserves is essential. While you might feel drawn to emotionally and financially depend on others it is important to build your own capital and security. Qualities that are important to develop on your vocational course are loyalty, trustworthiness and reliability, as these will help you feel content and successful, not only in what you do, but who you are as a person. Your vocational invitation is to develop your self worth and value through your vocation and come to intimately know how resourceful you are.
Vocationally there is a need to be occupied with what is crucial and important; to be able to feel you can get to the core of your tasks, and to uncover and expose what needs to be changed. You have inherited a knack of being able to manage crisis, repair and renovate what has become ill or damaged, and rebuild and transform what is out dated. You could also be adept at enabling others to delve deeply into themselves to uncover negative patterns from the past, being astute at healing and therapeutic situations. Now these innate skills need to be focused and one of the best ways is a 'hands-on' approach.
You need to be able to trust those you work with and for and therefore you might hold yourself back for fear of being misjudged or misunderstood. When you team up with others you can be highly successful; however your path of destiny suggests to first build up your own strength and security before you share your resources with others. Once you have accumulated your own resources and assets you will be better equipped to be met on that intense and intimate level you desire, then the horizon of possibilities with another is endless. While you have a deep understanding of the emotional needs and desires of others to realise your maximum potential you need to let others find their own emotional and financial support systems. Vocationally you seek to be secure and the dragon you battle is the regressive urge to let others do this for you. Developing patience, substance and a core of integrity, helps enormously in your feeling successful. Your wealth lies in the depth of soul and intimacy that you are able to provide others.
Aspects
Sun Soft Pluto
You're likely to achieve your life goals because you're a powerful person with strong leadership abilities. The Sun is making contact with the planet Pluto in your birth chart meaning that you know when to be assertive and when to compromise, essential qualities for succeeding in life. You're able to apply yourself to the job at hand, concentrating your energies on any project in which you wish to succeed. You're intense, obsessive and have the power to achieve your goals. At times this can be disconcerting to other people, but you're unlikely to worry about the effect that you have on other people. You like honest and direct communications, and find it easy to rid yourself of unwanted people or situations. In fact you are somewhat intolerant of other less-powerful people. It's likely that your father, or a strong parental figure, played an important role in your early childhood. You learnt at an early age how to fend for yourself. As an adult you're a real go-getter. Your challenge is to express your power in a positive manner. You may be interested in executive positions, and or in playing a prominent role in society, such as becoming a politician.
Mercury Soft Uranus
The planets Mercury and Uranus are connected in your birth chart indicating that you've an incisive and ingenious mind. You enjoy progressive topics in your studies and your communications with other people. In fact you may be ahead of your time in your thoughts, ideas and opinions. You're generally successful in your studies because you're able to communicate your original ideas with ease. Creativity and intuition are second nature. You're an independent thinker, who likes to be given the freedom to express your ideas. In fact woe betide anyone who tries to keep you quiet or change your mind. You make impulsive decisions, some would say rash, but generally speaking you tend to land on your feet. Your projects tend to reflect your individual flair, and stand out from the rest of the class or society. Writing, publishing, advertising, science, astrology and electrical affairs may all be of interest, although any unusual subject will catch your attention.
Mercury Soft Moon
The planet Mercury is associated with the Moon in your chart indicating you've a quick wit, and a sharp and penetrating mind. Depending on other influences in your chart, you're likely to excel in any studies, but particularly in communications, media studies, research, and languages. You may also be adept at public speaking, because of your sharp mind, and your clear elocution.
Venus Hard Mars
The planets Venus and Mars are combining unfavourably in your chart indicating that you struggle to balance your own needs and the needs of your partners in relationships. You see-saw between wanting closeness and freedom. On the one hand you seek adventure on your own, on the other you want to be close to your partner. The ideal is a balance between the two. You're charming and assertive, passionate and alive, and admire these qualities in a potential intimate partner. You love to share your adventures with your partner, and it's likely that your relationship will inspire both your and your partner to explore new territory. However, you may become impatient with your partner, or aggressive and irritable when he or she fails to keep up with your activities. You can be equally impatient with yourself, but this isn't necessarily any comfort to your partner.
Venus Soft Jupiter
"Lucky in love and money". This could be your personal motto because the favourable planets Jupiter and Venus are combining to shine good fortune on your relationships and finances. You're fun loving, generous and popular. With your sympathetic and kind nature, you've a talent for putting other people at their ease. You're optimistic and talented, full of joie de vivre. Therefore you're likely to be surrounded by supportive friends, and many potential life partners. You're seeking a relationship with someone who will expand your horizons, perhaps even joining your travels around the world. You love to share adventures, philosophies and goals. Other influences in your chart may indicate that you prefer to keep the home fires burning, but it's more likely that you seek adventure and romance with your partner.
Venus Soft Neptune
The planets Neptune and Venus are connected in your chart indicating that you yearn for romance in your primary relationship. Whether you realise it or not, you're seeking an ideal and perfect partner, who may only exist in fairy tales. If you're not careful you'll become disillusioned with the imperfections of relationships and seek solace in a fantasy world. You need to face the realities and imperfections of yourself and your partner as much as possible. This doesn't mean that you need to completely rule out romance and idyllic love. In fact it might help if you're able to escape with your loved one to a romantic setting, away from the demands of everyday life. Coming to terms with the reality of your relationship simply helps you obtain a better understanding of your primary relationship, and helps prevent you becoming disillusioned. In other words taking off the rose-coloured glasses means that you can make a proper assessment of your primary relationship. As a result you'll experience fewer feelings of resentment and disappointment because your partner fails to be perfect, and you won't be in danger of overlooking some major flaws such as drug addiction or deceit. With the right partner you'll enjoy a sense of peace and fulfilment. You may also enjoy artistic or spiritual pursuits together. You're ardent and loving, responding quickly to your partner's need. In turn you benefit from acts of kindness, love and appreciation.
Venus Trine Neptune
It is time for reflection rather than action. Artistic events, spiritual retreats and sojourns in nature are ideal for contemplative stage of your life. You are likely to have romantic notions right now. Let your imagination run wild. Indulge in a little daydreaming and avoid making life-changing decisions. Contracts, both business and personal, are best let alone because you are not in a practical mode - quite the opposite. Cast off as many responsibilities as is reasonable in your current circumstances and take pleasure in this creative and romantic phase. The more that you can relax and enjoy this phase the more you will feel rested and rejuvenated for the next phase. You may even discover a latent talent.
Venus Hard Pluto
The planets Venus and Pluto are combining unfavourably in your chart suggesting that drama plays a key role in your personal relationships. You're fiercely loyal and committed, and expect as much from your partner. You like to feel that there is an unbreakable emotional bond between you and your primary partner. Problems arise when you don't feel this bond with your partner, either because your partner is consumed with another interest, or if a third person appears to be lurking on the scene. At times like these you struggle to keep things in perspective. You're a jealous person, and quite capable of seeking revenge when wronged. You need to be wary of this darker side of your nature, seeking help when appropriate. You need also to be careful to choose the right person as your primary partner - someone who reciprocates your love and passion. Otherwise you can waste a lot of time and energy trying to make a doomed relationship work. You may also benefit from directing some of your energy into an all-consuming project, such as fighting for human rights or an intensely creative pursuit.
Mars Hard Saturn
Conflict is likely to be a key feature of your life because of the influence of the planets Saturn and Mars in your chart. When these combine in an unfavourable manner it leads to troubles and discord. You're probably well aware of the difficulties that you face in some areas of your life, finding it difficult to motivate yourself to overcome them. Other people and circumstances seem to stand in the path of your success, which is frustrating. In some cases you could be frustrated by a physical illness, which prevents you working towards your ambitions. It's true that you shouldn't neglect your physical health, because you could be prone to illness and harm through accidents. You may find that resentment and thoughts of revenge are ways in which you motivate yourself into action. Of course you would do well to avoid acting on these feelings, otherwise you could end up in violent disputes or in trouble with the law. This influence in your chart can indicate achieving notoriety, which is very different from achieving success. It's possible that you've difficulty remembering a time when life didn't have its problems. Perhaps you had a tough life as a child either through difficult family circumstances or because of a strict and harsh parent figure. Of course much of this scenario depends on other influences in your chart. On a more positive note you're confident and ambitious, capable of driving yourself and others to achieve your objectives. You can be motivated by the thought of achievement, and are likely to succeed through hard work and self-discipline. In fact you're determined to succeed in certain areas of your life. Your will power can be indomitable, particularly when you've determined on a course of action.
Mars semisextile Neptune
With Mars Semisextile Neptune, difficult moments of growth take on more creative meaning because of Samael and Tamiel. Samael is the Angel of Temptation. The gift in this Angelic energy is the power to market yourself and your ideas to others. Tamiel is the Angel of Dreams. Here you find the words and images, the touch and smell that entice others to buy or buy into your schemes.
Spirituality provides a regulator for your feelings and passions. While you definitely want to be successful, the aim is to do so without causing harm to anyone else. Therefore your Angels help you to be persuasive only after finding out what the other person wants or needs.
Sometimes you feel the urge to express yourself in a particular artistic medium. Although you may not sustain this interest long enough to develop expertise, your artistic efforts are deeply satisfying to you and they may grace your home or office, or the homes of family members. If you continue to produce works of art, you may gain a following.
A weakness is the tendency to consider harming others. You may have destructive thoughts, but you never need to act on them. Your Angels help you to channel your energies toward compassion instead of harm.
Another weakness is susceptibility to drugs and alcohol. Here again your meditations with the Angels help you to avoid unnecessary drug use, and to moderate use when drugs are prescribed.
A great strength is your inspired ability to plan grand ventures and then to see them through to completion. Any feelings of inferiority dissipate when you are fully engaged in a project. You magnetically attract just the right people to help you get things under way and approach your goals with few side trips or distractions.
The extent of your compassion is unlimited. As you deepen your awareness of Angelic presence, compassion flows from you to all living things, including the planet itself.
Mars Soft Neptune
If anyone needed to experience quiet and reflective moments in life, then it's you. The combination of the planets Mars and Neptune is urging you to "slow down and smell the roses" on a regular basis. This could be spending time in nature, listening to inspirational music, swimming in the ocean or sitting in a quiet house of prayer; any activity which provides emotional and physical rest and soothes the soul. If you don't schedule in quiet time then you're likely to suffer from lethargy and despondency, and possibly even physical illness. Escaping to a world of fantasy and contemplation is much more rewarding than other means, such as alcohol or drugs. And your chart is saying that you do need moments of escape. It's also possible that you have either a strong artistic or spiritual side to your nature, which motivates many of your actions. Your hobbies or career may reflect your spiritual or artistic interests. Your spirituality could be either orthodox or liberal. The artistic side of your nature may benefit from activities such as art, theatre, dance, music, design, film and craft work. You may also be inspired by sports such as swimming, tai chi, karate or kung fu.
Jupiter Hard Neptune
The planets Jupiter and Neptune are forming a difficult aspect in your chart indicating that you encounter difficulties early in life when expressing the creative side of your nature. It could be that you're not aware of your talents, or it could be that you're a dreamer who has trouble making practical moves to develop your abilities. Perhaps you're idealistic when it comes to assessing your options. The good news is that you're likely to overcome these difficulties as you mature. Whether you know it or not, you're a highly-talented individual. You're not necessarily a budding artist, but there's at least one area in your life in which you're creative. Of course you need to become aware of this talent before you can fully develop. You then need to acquire self-discipline if you're to make something of your gifts. Once you've made this discovery, whether it be in teaching, the arts, healing or spirituality, then you're capable of reaching for the stars. Your spiritual beliefs may also play a prominent role in helping you achieve your ambitions.
Jupiter Square Neptune
"Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal." This quotation by author Ralph Vaull Starr could be the theme of your life right now. It is a time for dreaming, for reflection and for making the most of any opportunities that arise to enable you to follow your dreams.
Saturn trine Neptune
With Saturn Trine Neptune, you experience a gentle yet serious confluence between Kafziel and Tamiel. Kafziel is the Angel of memory, solitude, and tears. Together these Angels put you on the path of personal integrity as surely as you follow one thought with another.
Your slow growth of understanding could be seen as a weakness. However, your path is one of steady, almost certain forward progress. You analyze and consider each decision and each new idea. In this way every step is firm and solid, not tentative or half-hearted.
Intelligent activity becomes part of your nature. Intelligent activity involves the skillful use and application of knowledge, so you must first gain knowledge before you can apply it effectively. Kafziel and Tamiel work in concert in your life by first supplying the means to learn, and then aiding your mind through dreams or visualizations of how to use the information you have gained.
As you allow your Angels into your life, you gain the capacity to maintain hope in the face of seeming disaster. You discover that even in the most difficult circumstances, you have Angelic protection, and you can find a way to work your way out of the problem.
These Angels help you learn how to manage pain. When you or someone else experience severe physical or emotional pain, your Angels provide the means for relieving its severity, as well as providing the path to resolving it altogether.
Zadkiel and Tamiel provide dreams to help you through life's difficulties. You have tenacity of spirit, and your Angels support its use. Sometimes you will have a conscious idea, and you work step by step to make that dream a reality. Other times dreams provide very direct messages about your life. Either way, your mental strength is a special ally throughout your life.
Saturn Soft Neptune
The favourable combination of the planets Saturn and Neptune indicate that you've the ability to be both practical and creative. If you have musical or artistic talent you have the self-discipline to make something of your gift. Whereas other people may give up in despair, you're likely to endure through long hours of practice in order to perfect your skills. As a result you could make a career from your artistic talents, such as performing on stage, designing for a theatrical production, or teaching your craft. You've a good sense of values, and an innate sense of timing. Both of these traits stand you in good stead in your career ambitions. It's also possible that you've a firm set of spiritual beliefs which guides your choice of life direction. In some cases you could enjoy a career directly connected with your spiritual beliefs.
Saturn Hard Mars
An unfavourable combination of the planets Saturn and Mars can indicate difficulties in your profession, particularly in partnerships or companies. You need to be careful to avoid litigation, which you're like to lose. Of course this depends largely on other influences in your chart. Nevertheless you need to act with the utmost integrity within your career to ensure success rather than scandal.
Uranus Hard Pluto
The planets Uranus and Pluto both move slowly through the zodiac, and therefore any connection between the two planets affects birth charts for a short period of time. You were born in such a time meaning that you work hard to use your power to right the wrongs you perceive in society. First you must learn to control that power in your own life, otherwise you're likely only to experience conflict and opposition from others, particularly those in authority. On a more positive note you've high ideals and the creative energy to implement changes. You may be curious about metaphysical matters, science and global affairs.
NorthNode Soft Pluto
You're on a quest to use your insights and personal experience to help others. This is because of the association of the North Node and the planet Pluto in your birth chart. You may encounter traumas during your lifetime, which will ultimately help to develop your resourceful nature.
NorthNode Soft Venus
The North Node and the planet Venus are combining in your chart suggesting that your destiny is linked with the need to develop harmonious and balanced relationships. Relationships play an important role in your accomplishments. You are joyous when you're part of a team, working in collaboration with other people to achieve your objectives.
SouthNode Soft Mars
The South Node and the planet Mars are combining to suggest that you may experience difficulty being assertive and finding the drive to succeed, or alternatively you may have a tendency to misdirect your energies. Your current life lesson is to express your energy positively and assertively. Your talent for independent action needs to be developed so that you can achieve your purpose.
SouthNode Soft Pluto
You've a tendency to become embroiled in the dramas and crises of life, whether they be real ones or in your imagination. This is because of the association of the South Node and the planet Pluto in your birth chart. It's true that you're familiar with the darker side of life: matters such as jealousy, malice, under-handed deals, abusive behaviour, criminal elements and depravation. Your challenge is to rise above the negativity, whether it's your own or other people's, and to use your insights and resources for the good of others. For instance you could prove skilled in the area of crisis counselling.
Chiron conjunct Moon
No matter what the rest of your chart is like, this aspect makes you very sensitive to vibrations of all types, so you must learn early in life some deep philosophy which takes into account unseen forces. If you don’t, you can grow up terrified of forces beyond your control. For some, this takes on a deep interest in a profound religion, but in whatever direction you were pulled towards, you needed some belief that allowed you to accept your sensitivity, and to accept the forces around you as part of the universe.
You are also extremely susceptible to influence from your personal environment, and soon develop very unique criteria (tastes) about what it takes to make you comfortable. For some it is a choice to live in a residence that other people would feel are anything but normal. (One person I know sought out a place to live in that is haunted; another moved into a house made entirely of rubber tires.)
There is a side to this aspect that can be summed up in the phrase, ‘the hunger’. On some level as a child you felt you were not getting enough of your needs fulfilled, perhaps not enough food, or enough nurturing, or comfort. As a result, until you heal the wound, you seem never to quite get your fill of something. For some, it is food, and they eat way too much; for some it is security, and they fear going out into the world; for some, it is the warmth of a companion, and they are very needy in relationships. The key to healing is to delve into the roots of your feelings, understand why you felt deprived, and forgive those who made you feel that way. In this way you can free yourself from the hunger that is rooted in the wound, and live more in the present.
Should you choose to, you can easily sway people’s emotions because you are able to tune into feelings common to everyone; some emotions most people can identify within themselves. You probably have an instinctive understanding of how to help others, as you have a deep empathy for the pains and sufferings they feel. Especially those that suffer because they must go without.
You most likely had a mother who was quite unique in some way, perhaps a researcher or pioneer in some area, or simply someone who loved to open new doors to see what was on the other side. Or she may have been involved in medicine, health, or healing, trying to find out how to help people. As a result you inherited a deep curiosity yourself, and an instinctive dislike of closed doors, a belief that nothing should block you from finding answers.
Chiron Conjunct Sun
You are a sensitive and caring soul who can be is easily wounded by life. You may be subject to a range of illnesses, perhaps even serious health concerns, which can impact on you both physically and emotionally. As a result of life's experiences you will come to realise that you possess a unique gift for healing; indeed a profession in the healing arts could ideally suit your temperament and abilities. You would be wise to listen and honour your inner self. You may find that you are put into situations that are painful and through this suffering you will become a more caring and giving individual. You will discover that healing takes place on many levels and come to understand that the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual dimensions are intertwined and of equal importance. You can make a valuable contribution to the health and wellbeing of others and may become involved in teaching the lessons you have learned. Honouring and expressing your individuality may be a challenge, but will bring rewards as you develop wisdom.
Chiron Opposite Ascendant
Chiron was setting at birth casting its influence over the realm of relationships in your life. Part of the pattern will be the recovery and healing of emotional wounds through relationship. You are drawn to those who are emotionally in need to understand how your hurts keep you from being emotionally available. Vocationally you have an aptitude for working with others in a therapeutic way, empathetic to the addict, compassionate to the bereaved and nurturing of the homeless. With Chiron angular your destiny is to be involved with the complexes of others in order to facilitate healing.
Chiron square Midheaven
A square makes you easily dissatisfied with the ordinary circumstances of life. There are deep wounds connected with both parents (or whoever your authority role models were in childhood), as you were very sensitive to everything they said, as well as to any conflict or undercurrent of anger or dissension that passed between them. One parent, or perhaps both, made you feel you had little self-worth. You may have repeated memories of feeling let down by role models you looked up to. It may be because you were made to feel that you would never amount to something, or it may be that you were constantly made to feel that you must find the right career for yourself and nothing else would do,perhaps not having the right tools or knowledge needed to find this ideal profession. Part of your healing must involve recognizing that you are different than your parents were. That, to paraphrase Gibran, you are from them, but you are not them. No matter what type of relationship they had with each other, your relationships need not be anything like theirs. No matter how they made you feel (and it may have been unintentional on their part), should you become a parent, the way you treat your children need not be anything like the way you were treated.
A major lesson is that you must grow and evolve along your own path, no matter what they said, you ‘should’ or ‘shouldn’t’ do or become.
As a result of your low self-esteem it might take you a while to find what you want to do with your life. To make matters worse, the Midheaven is the most outward, public part of a person, which means that when you are experiencing pain it is extremely difficult to hide it from the outside world, it’s out in the open. Chiron is also square the opposite point, the Immum Coeli, so it is also extremely difficult to hide any pain you feel from your family.
But the more you heal, the more you desire to learn about yourself, and about the world, the more you learn, the more you heal. To some extent this means that you may be a student for your entire life.
Careers where it is important to remain secure, learning is where you will shine, where you can do something to help others heal in some way, physically, or emotionally, mentally, spiritually, or a career where you open minds, encouraging others to want to learn. So you could have a career as a healer, or you could be that teacher people remember because you made them want to explore the world after they left your class.