Shafqat Amanat Ali
Lahore, Pakistan
Shafqat Amanat Ali Khan (Urdu: شفقت امانت علی خان; pronounced [ˈʃəfkət əˈmaːnət əˈliː xaːn]; born 26 February 1965) is a Pakistani pop and classical singer, songwriter, and composer belonging to the Patiala Gharana tradition of music. He was the lead vocalist of the Pakistani pop rock band Fuzön until 2006 and is a prominent playback singer in the Indian film industry and Pakistani television industry. The youngest son of noted classical vocalist Ustad Amanat Ali Khan, Ali started his musical training at the age of four under the tutelage of his uncle, Ustad Bade Fateh Ali Khan, who was widely…
The Big Three
- Sun Scorpio
- Moon Aquarius
- Rising Time Unknown
- Sun soft Moon
- Sun Soft Jupiter
- Moon Soft Uranus
- Moon Soft Mars
- Mercury Soft Moon
Birth Details
- Date
- October 25, 1974
- Time
- 12:00 (approximate — rising sign not shown)
- Place
- Lahore, Pakistan
- Coordinates
- 31.5497° N, 74.3436° E
- House System
- Equal
Birth Chart Report for Shafqat Amanat Ali
Your Sun Sign
Sun in Scorpio
The eighth sign of the zodiac is the most enigmatic of all and has a reputation for being mysterious and powerful. In the northern hemisphere, Scorpio heralded the ending of the year and the sign became associated with fermentation and decay, as death stalked the countryside and announced the time for withdrawal. Astrologically this realm locates the deepest layers of the human psyche, the forge where integrity is fired and shaped through self-analysis. With the Sun in Scorpio you learn to trust your instincts and emotionally differentiate between truth and falseness from an early age. Your emotions can be intense, your feelings deep and powerful, suggesting that in your life you need to experience passion, honesty and intimacy in all walks of life. Vocationally you need to be respected for the power of your feelings and the truth of your convictions.
In Scorpio we encounter the hidden and unexpressed aspects of the self as well as the negative impulses that we must learn to control and direct. Therefore with your Sun in Scorpio you are challenged to summon the psychological strength to contain your compulsions and create space for unwanted feelings. You have the emotional capacity to contain these impulses and the integrity to act honestly and authentically. Therefore you may feel drawn to working with others in difficult situations, dealing with crisis or helping in transition. Your innate capacity to summon inner strength in the face of emotional adversity and loss means you are unafraid to acknowledge the reality of your feelings, mourn for what has past or grieve for what cannot be. Your emotional integrity is therapeutic and transformational, helping others to heal and move forwards through the dark. You have a powerful gift of being able to confront the most difficult truths and feel unashamed of your humanness. Therefore you might feel called to use this in your vocation either as a therapist, healer, counsellor or any other profession where you can combine the complex amalgam of love and honesty in your life work.
Integrity is your virtue, that ability to be painfully honest with those you love, to disclose your own vulnerability and face the truth about what has happened. You have the emotional courage to face the disappointments and anger of others. You also have the capacity to trust in yourself and know that when others let you down, you can forgive them, or more importantly forgive yourself. It is this integrity that allows you to know the depth of intimacy and the power of love. Knowing how to be trustworthy, you are able to contain the fears and vulnerabilities of others. Your integrity inspires others to be honest and open. Through this open exchange trust can be built. At the end your integrity is the key to self-mastery and a clear conscience. To find your vitality and spirit and to feel soulful in the world, you need to strive for honesty, trust and truth using your intuitive and resourceful faculties.
Your Moon Sign
Moon in Aquarius
With your Moon in Aquarius you are instinctually altruistic and concerned for the welfare of others. Although born to be a humanitarian, you may often struggle with the difference between personal and impersonal relationships, preferring to remain disengaged than be involved emotionally. Ironically you feel safer in the future than the past and therefore are intellectually agile in understanding progress and social development. You need to be involved in the making of the future and therefore are often drawn to science, technology or alternate avenues that help shape the times to come. Therefore it may be difficult for you to feel connected or involved in emotional, sentimental or traditional ways, as your soul is in touch with tomorrow, not yesterday. You are unique and need to express your individuality in whatever you do. Vocationally independence and the lack of rigidity and hierarchy are important. This may lead you into discovering your own tribe of radicals who are able to work in a more egalitarian and self-affirming way.
When you were younger you might have stood out as being different. Your lunch box had different foods or liking different styles may have marginalised you from the group, until you were able to find your own kind. As you matured you needed to express your individuality and differences, as this is an important feature of your character. Your flair for the unusual and new age needs to be acknowledged and considered. Now you might need your uniqueness be more apparent in your vocation. While individualism is important to you, social interaction and intellectual stimulation are as well. To care for your soul you need to be moved by the spirit of being human and strive for the ideals that are inherently a part of who you are. No doubt you need a progressive, inventive and forward-looking career path, in which you creatively contribute to designing the future.
If you are called to the nurturing professions then your Moon in Aquarius would lean towards alternate or complementary healthcare. Naturally you are drawn to the unusual and may have developed unique methods to help others. Being acutely aware of social process you work well with groups and organisational reform.
Your Rising Sign
Ascendant in Aries
Your destiny is to actively seek your purpose in life, taking the initiative rather than waiting until circumstances are comfortable. This may come easily to you if other aspects of your Birth Chart (and therefore personality) support this goal. However, this may be a challenge if part of you often prefer comfort and security. Your Ascendant in Aries denotes enterprise, enthusiasm, self-assertion and initiative. You are likely to experience more satisfaction throughout life if you can incorporate these qualities. You need to be frank, pioneering, headstrong and self-reliant. You revel in anything that enables you to take the initiative, avoiding following other people's lead in preference for striking out into new territory. You value challenges, particularly those that test you physically and mentally. It's likely that your purpose is linked to taking the initiative, starting something new that benefits other people. Your intellect is keen, and you're full of ideas. All of these traits can propel you on a journey which is meaningful and of true worth. Money does not provide you with happiness. If you seek projects for the sake of making money only, then you are likely to become dissatisfied with your work, profession and perhaps with life. It is important with this Ascendant that you continue to seek new challenges, rather than stay in a situation because it provides material comfort only. Your soul wants to soar. Money may provide you with the freedom to experience life to its fullest potential, but you must ensure that you move forward when you hear that still small voice calling. Meditation may help you slow down long enough to listen to your true calling. If you would like to focus on a positive affirmation connected to money then with your Aries Ascendant you could use this one from “Creating Money – Keys to Abundance”by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer “I change the world around me by changing myself”.
Planets in Signs
Mercury in Scorpio
The planet Mercury in the zodiac sign of Scorpio indicates that you're a resourceful person, adept at delving into the heart of matters. For this reason you're an excellent person to have around in a crisis. You know just the right people to call, and just the right resources to call on. You're also an empathetic listener, unafraid of confronting intimate problems. In fact you prefer to talk to people on a meaningful level, rather than communicate on a superficial level. At social gatherings you can often be found in an intense conversation in the corner of a room, rather than taking part in the general social chat. Communications with you are intense. While you're good at listening to others, you can also have a tendency to be obsessed with your own problems. You're a worrier. You do best when you can turn your resourceful and probing mind into a project which requires concentration and research. A little intrigue would also be welcomed. You enjoy reading novels with an intricate and absorbing plot.
Venus in Libra
With Venus in the sign of Libra you enjoy the company of other people and tend to fill your life with people from all walks of life, although you do have a preference for people from the higher echelons of society. Your diary is filled with social occasions ranging from quiet chats with one or two friends, to larger gatherings of your loved ones. You've plenty of loved ones to choose from because human relationships are such a source of pleasure for you. You are kind and courteous and your enjoyment of people is contagious. As a result you're popular with your friends. Listening to other people's stories and offering soothing advice is almost second nature. You're particularly gifted at solving problems, because your first thought is to maintain harmony in relationships and you can always see both sides of a situation. Therefore you're able to bridge the gap between many a warring party. Your primary relationship is also important, and your first preference is for a long-lasting marriage based on fidelity and trust, rather than a series of shorter love affairs. It's important for you to keep the romance and enjoyment alive, otherwise you could feel trapped in an unrewarding relationship. You've a love of fine arts and enjoy sharing this with your friends and loved ones. You need only be wary of spending too much time and energy on your loved ones at the expense of yourself.
Mars in Libra
The planet Mars in the sign of Libra indicates that you have a strong desire for diplomacy and justice, and these can be major themes in your life. You strive for harmonious relationships and justice in your own life, and yet they often seem elusive. Perhaps this is because you're so sensitive to the injustices of the world that they take on larger proportions than they need, or perhaps it's simply that it's your role to notice and fight against wrongdoings. Either way you're often asked to take on the role of mediator and diplomat even though you may prefer to be pursuing your own creative pursuits rather than solving other people's problems. There are always plenty of people surrounding you, because you pursue friendships with many different people. On the whole you're a courteous person, but you do have a passionate side to your nature which can erupt in bursts of anger. You have a strong creative urge, which may be channelled into artistic or creative activities such as art, theatre, design, writing or dance. You have refined tastes, and seek to share these with other people. Astrologically speaking the planet Mars is considered to be in difficulty when in the sign of Libra which probably explains why you experience some problems in your relationships with others.
Jupiter in Pisces
You've the planet Jupiter in the zodiac sign of Pisces in your birth chart indicating that you are a kind-hearted person, who is interested in pursuing matters of the heart rather than of the intellect. This doesn't mean that you're not intelligent. Quite the contrary. It's simply that you're an intuitive and sensitive person, who wants to contribute to humanity in a meaningful way. You want to reach other people through the emotions and the heart. For these reasons you could be involved in charity work, or helping a spiritual group spread its message, or nursing sick and unfortunate people, possibly even animals. You're the original champion of the underdog. You're also on a search for spiritual meaning in your own life, which could lead to studies and overseas travel. Travel by water may particularly appeal. Once you've discovered some meaning, you could be a spiritual or religious teacher. You are a perceptive person, possibly with psychic abilities, and you've a great deal to contribute to the world. Astrologically speaking the planet Jupiter is considered to be in a favourable position in the zodiac sign of Pisces meaning that you're likely to succeed in your goals.
Saturn in Cancer
The planet Saturn in the sign of Cancer signifies that although you work hard to achieve your objectives in life, you suffer from feelings of discontentment. Sometimes you even feel jealous of all that other people seem to have. These mixed emotions can prompt you to change your aims, which can result in frequent changes of mood, pursuits and residences. You can become quite resentful if you feel that other people are standing in your way, putting up obstacles to your latest change of heart. As a result you can sometimes feel quite isolated from other people, and also quite revengeful and deceitful. You need to be wary of feelings of suicide. The reason for your struggles, astrologically speaking, is that the planet Saturn is considered to be in detriment in the sign of Cancer. On a brighter side you do have the ability to overcome this side of your nature and to aim towards emotional satisfaction at work and home. You need to make sure that the vengeful and restless side of your nature is kept to a minimum, and to be honest with yourself and other people. In this way you can slowly and surely work towards achieving a happy home and workplace.
Uranus in Libra
The planet Uranus was in the sign of Libra from 1968 - 1975. It's important to note that Uranus spends a long time in each sign, and therefore the interpretation applies to a generation rather than the individual. For a more individual interpretation you need to look at the house position of Uranus in your chart. Uranus in the sign of Libra indicates that you belong to a generation which seeks new ways of achieving just human relations. This period indicates the breaking down of the old forms of relationships and the introduction of new ones and the introduction of new concepts about justice. Your creativity soars when you're tackling these issues.
Neptune in Sagittarius
The planet Neptune was in the sign of Sagittarius from 1970 - 1984. It's important to note that Neptune takes about 164 years to make a complete cycle, spending about thirteen years in each sign, and therefore the interpretation applies to a generation rather than the individual. For a more individual interpretation you need to look at the house position of Neptune in your chart. Neptune in the sign of Sagittarius indicates that you belong to a generation possessing the gift of spiritual vision. You'll be able to help humanity focus on spiritual goals and become more expansive and inclusive of differing races and beliefs.
Pluto in Libra
The planet Pluto was in the sign of Libra from 1972 - 1984. It's important to note that Pluto takes about 248 years to make a complete cycle, spending 12 - 32 years in each sign, and therefore the interpretation applies to a generation rather than the individual. For a more individual interpretation you need to look at the house position of Pluto in your chart. Pluto in the sign of Libra suggests that you belong to a generation concerned with global justice and transforming human relations. Your generation possesses the ability to see the necessity for change in personal and global relations.
Chiron in Aries
You are a sensitive soul whose journey towards wholeness may involve you in events that make you feel that you are singled out in some way.
It may be necessary for you to cross a threshold, perhaps some kind of pain barrier, emotional or physical, before you can embrace your own creative potential with full confidence. You may be defined in some way by a wounding event that calls into question your identity. As a result you may become a leader or pioneer. Even though being in charge and taking the initiative means facing your fears, you are capable of inspirational leadership and taking decisive action.
You may feel vulnerable, feeling that your pain and scars are visible to others. By being courageous, you will find the key to face life's challenges.
At times you perhaps feel a deep sense of isolation, or aloneness and feel that you have to push ahead on your own, without much support from others. But relationships will also bring you opportunities to heal. Over time you will begin to forge supportive connections with others who may have undergone similar experiences. You will discover you have a rare gift to heal others as well as yourself.
Planets in Houses
Sun in 7th House
The progressed Sun moves slowly through the houses. The seventh house of your chart is currently emphasized indicating that significant relationships are important themes in your life. These could include your marriage union or important business partnerships.
Moon in 11th House
You are more social during this phase of your life than others. If your social calendar has always been a busy one, then it will be more so now. If you are a usually a homebody then you now feel the urge to socialize more. It is not time to sit at home on your own because you can benefit greatly from your social contacts and outings. Your friends, and community groups, become the focus. Whether you realize it or not, you are feeling the urge to explore your personal goals in the light of what you would like to achieve in the wider community. Your friends support you in this process. Therefore you seek their company. In fact any friendships that have become stale and unsupportive may end during this phase. You meet new and stimulating associates, and form new friendships. Perhaps you become involved in a group of like-minded individuals and work towards a common goal. You may also find yourself in leadership roles among your peers or in your community groups. Either way this can be an enjoyable time during which you discover new goals and new skills and benefit from new associations. If you feel a little overwhelmed by all of the activity then you can take comfort in the knowledge that the next phase of your life is much more contemplative. Therefore you would do well to make the most of your activities knowing that you can reflect on this period later.The sign of your progressed Moon will also show you the manner in which you are likely to search for your new goals and friendships.
Mercury in 7th House
The planet Mercury progresses very slowly around the Zodiac and so you may have this planet in the 7th House of your birth chart or it may have progressed into it during your life time. It indicates that you are currently seeking a companion in life who stimulates your mind as much as your heart. For this reason you are likely to choose a partner who has similar interests and/or a similar IQ. For you a marriage is indeed a marriage of two minds, not just hearts. If you are already married then you will find yourself questioning your marriage as this planet moves through the House of Marriages and Contracts. You may decide that you are satisfied with your marriage contract, however; you may also gradually change your mind and try to negotiate new terms for your relationship. If you are single then you may start to notice new ways to attract a partner. You may even have a choice between two potential mates. As this planet slowly progresses through the 7th House of your birth chart then this interest in a stimulating partner grows. If you do not honour your intellectual needs then you are likely to grow restless. It is likely to be far better to be honest, seek contracts that suit you, and negotiate terms that serve your long-term goals.
Venus in 7th House
The planet of love is progressing slowly through your marriage sector. You can look at the moment that this lucky planet first triggered the sensitive axis of love, however; you are likely to feel its warm and loving rays for some time. If you are single and asking the question, "When will I find love?" then the answer is very soon, if not already. Now is an excellent time to focus on the type of person who you would like to attract into your life. It has been said that some spend more time shopping for shoes or cars that searching for a life-time partner. Well this is your time to rectify any oversights when it comes to love. It is time to draw up your relationship wishlist, decide what is negotiable and not-negotiable and then socialise in places that you enjoy and which are possible meeting places. Perhaps someone already exists? Have you taken a look at friends close to home? Once you have drawn up your relationship wishlist then you may be well advised to re-think some of your friendships in the light of possible romance. As this planet moves through this sector you may feel more and more determined to find love. However, you need to avoid feelings of desperation. As a television character in "Big Bang Theory" states, do not indulge in "desperation emanation, of anti-phermones". If you find that you are becoming somewhat "desperate" then turn your attention to self-improvement, in particular grooming and pleasurable activities. Ask yourself, "would I like to be married to me?" the good news is that you are likely to attract not one but many potential lovers during this phase, so focus on what you value most and enjoy. If you are married then this period could signal a time of renewed romance. Set aside some time for activities that promote fun, pleasure and romance.
Mars in 7th House
You have a strong drive for partnership when this feisty planet moves through the 7th House of marriage, contracts and treaties. You need to make sure that you are heading in the right direction when it comes to partnership. Otherwise you may experience conflict. Sometimes this movement can indicate that something has changed in your life that equally triggers a change in your marriage or business partnership. This change could herald an urge for more freedom or for more togetherness, depending on other aspects your astrology. Either way you need to negotiate the way ahead carefully in order to attract co-operation rather than conflict.
Jupiter in 11th House
Jupiter is also in the 11th House of your chart. There's a popular song that has a line "I'll get by with a little help from my friends", and this could be your theme song. You've many true and fortunate friends, some who hold prominent positions in society. Your friends do their best to support you emotionally, and perhaps even financially, so that you can achieve your life goals. This is fortunate because you've high hopes of achieving success in your life. You're popular amongst your friends, a real social success, and the resulting benefits are considerable. You also like to belong to groups of like-minded people, and these associations can also prove beneficial. Whether you realise it or not, your optimism and cheerfulness are an inspiration to your friends, and they too can benefit from their association with you.
Saturn in 4th House
The planet Saturn progresses slowly through the Zodiac and so it is significant when it moves from one area of your chart to another. The good news is that you have spent many years learning how to express yourself with clarity and authority. Now you gradually form foundations that last a lifetime. Family and home are likely to become a haven for you. Security can be sort in family networks, bricks and mortar or a sense of belonging to a community. You need to gradually put in place the building blocks that help you feel safe in your own life. Working from home, or retirement may become options during the years that follow. There is no rush when the planet Saturn is involved. This is a gradual process that can take years.
Uranus in 7th House
The planet Uranus is in the 7th House of your birth chart suggesting that you've a need for unconventional relationships. Depending on other aspects in your birth chart, these relationships have a positive or negative effect on your life. On a positive note you attract an unusual primary partner, someone who is original or involved in an unusual occupation, perhaps even a genius in their field. Your marriage gives you just the right amount of freedom to pursue your independent activities. You also benefit from lively and unusual business partnerships, or a business partnership in an unusual project. On the other hand, you may experience misunderstandings and troubles through your marriage and business relationships, which can lead to separation and disputes, possibly even law suits. Perhaps your partner is cruel, or possibly you rushed into these partnerships with little thought of the consequences. If you've experienced troubles in your marriage and business partnerships, which have resulted in loss, then you would do well to avoid conventional partnerships in the future. You would also be wise to avoid legal conflicts, because you're unlikely to benefit.
Neptune in 8th House
+Neptune Square Pluto When the planets Neptune and Pluto combine to influence the 8th House of your Birth Chart your financial portfolio is subject to some volatile forces. On the positive side of the ledger you can accumulate great wealth, strike it rich. Your challenge then is to make the most of your good fortune, rather than squandering it. This is the negative side of the ledger. You may have difficulty making sound investments. Forces at work seem to sabotage your efforts. On the other hand you may have a passionate interest in the world’s economy, natural resources and politic organisations. As such you could expend your time, personal income and energy becoming embroiled in matters larger than your own personal interests. As such material wealth is repellent rather than attractive. All of your personal resources may be directed into helping the planet and society in general. Money may enable you to pursue your passions.
Pluto in 6th house
In your horoscope Pluto is in the domain of the 6th house and your task is to find ways to express the archetype of the underworld and death in your daily life. While this may seem an ominous task change is an everyday part of our experiences. Reflect on how you might be able to bring this powerful force into the working sphere.
Mythologically Pluto resides below the visible world, surfacing infrequently. However when he does make his presence known, it is life altering. Therefore with Pluto in this sphere your work experience is transforming and confronting. Through work you are drawn into the deeper aspects of yourself in order to learn to trust yourself. The nature of Pluto is to reveal what is buried and it is consistent with this archetype to suggest that work is therapeutic by nature forcing you into a confrontation with the self. What is it you said you would never do? What is it you fear? Well with Pluto in the 6th house it is in the work sphere where you will confront these taboos. Quite literally you may work in an area that deals with what is unmentionable, secret or buried.
Professionally this gives you a depth of character. This may lead you into therapeutic careers, occupations that involve loss, death, transition, or employment which is intense. Like an archaeologist you like to peel away the layers to find the truth and therefore have a knack for research, crisis work or change management. You may also be involved with finance, especially the investment of other people's resources. Your best work is done in a crisis and therefore destiny may lead you into an occupation where your critical skills are needed to manage or advise. However what is very important is that you also are aware of your need for privacy and respect. You work well with others when you need to, but probably do better on your own.
Therefore you need to reflect on the nature of your vocation and become comfortable with the intense nature of work. You have a propensity to become fixated or obsessed with work detail and perhaps do work best in an intense way. You need to be vigilant that work does not consume you or abduct you away from your personal life. Because the work environment constellates your strength and conviction you often experience other colleagues or work mates being intimated by or envious of you. Unfortunately there is nothing you can do to change this except to recognise their discomfort with your intensity and your commitment to truth. Certainly you cannot allow yourself to be disempowered by others' weaknesses. On the other hand you will also draw powerful and insightful people in your orbit who will change your attitudes to work. The sphere of work will offer you the opportunities to encounter your integrity and honesty, confronting you to be true to yourself.
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NorthNode in the 8th House
Your North Node is in the 8th House with the South Node being in the polarity of the 2nd House. In your horoscope this is the polarity that brings the sharing of resources into opposition with personal assets. You tend to be self-made and independent, but sometimes feel that you cannot trust other people when it comes to the world of wealth and resources. You can trust your own judgment with investments and banking, but not so sure you can trust anyone else. Your challenge is to trust your own judgment enough to be open, intimate and trusting of some people, if not all. Trust, loyalty and integrity are challenges that await us in the 8th House and these are encountered through a deep emotional bond that confronts our vulnerability. The invitation of the North Node is to face this challenge of becoming deeply involved with another person, and not get fixed in the safety zone of your own assets. You are able to be generous, giving and resourceful; however your kindness and generosity may be your defence against being vulnerable. You might be asked to risk losing assets and resources in order to take a chance at loving.
Vocationally your assets are better invested in working with others and forging deep and trustworthy connections. You have an instinct for what is valuable and when you share this talent with others you find that you become even better off. Call it luck or fortune but providence has blessed you with an innate sense of resourcefulness for the purpose of helping others feels secure. Tyche, the goddess who spins the wheel of fortune, is your resourceful and kind-hearted spirit when you direct your energies towards others. Vocationally your path intersects with the spiritual, emotional and financial needs of others. Your ability to create wealth is a given and therefore you may be drawn to a profession in financial arenas such as stock market and futures trading, investment banking, and mortgage broking.
Chiron in 12th House
Relationships are delicately balanced at the best of times. A loving and sound relationship offers the opportunity for healing of emotional wounds from the past and personal growth and fulfilment. When two people relate in a loving way, working through emotionally difficult times then Chiron is working at its best. At times in relationship, one person may inadvertently trigger the other’s hurt feelings. These feelings may be left over from your childhood, or from a previous relationship. Either way your current relationship is an opportunity to relate differently. A loving union provides the chance to let go of the past and experience intimacy and true love now. This placement of Chiron in your Combined Chart indicates a strong subconscious connection. You are drawn to each other without really understanding why. This is your challenge. You need to understand this attraction before making a full commitment. If you are drawn to each other because you share a strong sense of empathy then this can be the basis for a meaningful relationship. However, if one of you feels sympathetic to the other’s dire circumstances in life, and wants to protect, or perhaps even subconsciously take advantage of the other, then this is a relationship to be viewed with caution. Either way this union does provide you both with an opportunity to face and heal deeply held wounds from the past. In some cases two people who have faced and risen above addictions can form a strong and supportive bond. Together you may discover a profound interest in the arts, music, poetry and other such pursuits, or in healing or spirituality. Together you may benefit from meditation and retreat, as long as you also take part in practical and earthy activities. It is important that this relationship does not become one of supporting each other’s addictions, wounds or need to permanently retreat from the world. This union needs to help one or both of you heal the past and move forward in a loving, safe and wholesome manner. As you find you own fulfilment, together you may work with other people, helping them to find peace and contentment.
Nodes
NorthNode in Sagittarius
You were born with the North Node in Sagittarius and the South Node in Gemini, the mutable polarity of the zodiac which aligns with the quest for knowledge and truth. Your South Node suggests that you have a curiosity for life while your North Node suggest a call to adventure, to quest for truth and meaning seeking answers to the larger questions of life. Therefore vocationally it is important to pack a suitcase or strap on a backpack as preparation for a journey of discovery and education. To discover your pathway in the world you will need freedom of movement and lots of opportunities to be mobile. Opportunities for growth, advancement and learning as well as your intuitive and strategic abilities need to be fostered in a career. You need to know that you have an infinite range of possibilities, a freedom of movement, wide-open spaces and a limitless promise of discovery in your career; anything less is disappointing!
Your invitation is to be able to perceive the bigger picture out of the infinite information and communication available. Your task is to make the information meaningful, offer vision in a short sighted environment, see beyond the details and inject spirit into a soulless world. You must battle the dragon of being too logical and rational and use the divine gift of your intuition and perception to make a difference. While you feel more comfortable in the square your destiny lies outside it and you will be called on to be much more visionary and far seeing than you are comfortable with. Your destination points towards education and mentoring. Somewhere along the way you have accumulated a tremendous amount of information, facts and data. In fact you may still feel that you need to gather more through classes, courses and programs. However this may leave you feeling stuck in the role of apprentice and learner, rather than what your destiny pulls you towards and that is the role of educator and visionary. Somehow it is imperative to channel your learning into the creation of new systems of knowledge and education. Your idealism and interest in social education and reform may require that there is a degree of social involvement in your occupation.
Ethics, morals and ideals are important; therefore it is essential that your work reflects your personal ethics. You need to be involved with something that you can believe in and recommend. Your philosophical and humanistic view of the world needs to be utilised, as then an enthusiastic energy that inspires and motivates others is natural. Vocations involving the dispensation of knowledge, sales, motivation and encouraging others to perform beyond their limits are natural for you. Your need for freedom and the necessity to fully express yourself to pursue your goals openly and honestly is important.
Aspects
Sun soft Moon
This is a lovely aspect to have in your Birth Chart as it gives you a helping hand in life from a young age. In some ways you are charmed. When the Sun is making a positive aspect to the Moon, this means that you're likely to succeed in your life through promotion, prosperity, and help from powerful people. You're also likely to gain employment easily, and earn the respect of other people. Your health and vitality is good, helping you achieve your goals. You're attractive to other people, as they are intrigued by your personality. You are confident, and yet you are not egotistical. You attract people who help raise your position in society and assist you in achieving your goals.
Sun Soft Jupiter
The Sun is making a favourable contact with the positive planet Jupiter in your chart meaning that you're blessed with good fortune and a happy nature. You've the ability to land on your feet no matter how difficult a situation. This is partly because you're destined to be in the right place at the right time throughout your life. It's possible that a father or grandfather figure has given you a helping hand in life, teaching you to have confidence in your own abilities. Your success is also due to the fact that your positive attitude to life attracts good fortune. Your optimism and enthusiasm are infectious. You're popular and generous, and tend to shine in the company of other people. You like to embrace life and all it has to offer. As a result your life tends to read like an adventure story, possibly including travels around the globe. You're not necessarily attracted to rugged adventure, preferring to travel in style. It would be unusual for you to go without comforts. Even a camping trip may involve the latest equipment guaranteed to ensure comfort. You also get plenty of chances to expand your mind, whether this be through the experiences of your lifetime or through study in an academic institution. You're likely to shine in your studies, eventually making an inspirational teacher if you choose this path. You may be surprised by the number of people who have been impressed by your attitude, to the extent that they have felt inspired to change their own lives. You're likely to achieve your goals whatever path is followed, and perhaps to help others achieve theirs.
Moon Soft Uranus
The Moon is making contact with the planet Uranus in your chart suggesting that your home life is never dull. You're a resourceful, inventive and independent person, who needs a stimulating household in order to feel fully alive. If your home and family don't provide a little excitement, then you're likely to find it difficult to settle in one place. As it is you're often restless, seeking adventure and change. You enjoy the unconventional side of life and need excitement, and are likely to show the wilful side of your nature if forced to conform to other people's demands. You're a unique individual with many enterprising ideas, enjoying the freedom of expressing yourself in unconventional ways and attracted to exciting and different activities in which you excel. It's possible that you're drawn to unusual houses, or to out-of-the-way locations. You may enjoy living in a commune rather than a traditional family situation. Whether you realise it or not, others may see you as a little eccentric. As long as you can accept and enjoy your individual qualities, then your loved ones are also likely to appreciate your unique contribution to family life.
Moon Soft Mars
The Moon is making an aspect to Mars in your chart indicating that your home life is active and boisterous, rather than a peaceful environment. Fortunately you're an impulsive and emotional person, who prefers action to becoming bored by inactivity. You're likely to feel more comfortable when faced with a challenge. For this reason you may enjoy working around the house or working from home. It's possible that your need for an active home life stems from your childhood home environment, which was busy and boisterous. Perhaps your mother, or a strong woman in your household, was vivacious and dynamic, possibly even fiery. In some cases male members of the family can display these traits. Either way at a young age you learnt how to enjoy a spirited home life, which you've carried into your adult life. You need to be wary of a lack of sensitivity to other people's feelings. Not everyone is as feisty as you. You could also try to avoid becoming embroiled in arguments with women. This could be difficult as you're impetuous, liable to act without thinking. Mostly you enjoy the challenge of new activity, but at times your vigorous nature can land you in hot water.
Mercury Soft Moon
The planet Mercury is associated with the Moon in your chart indicating you've a quick wit, and a sharp and penetrating mind. Depending on other influences in your chart, you're likely to excel in any studies, but particularly in communications, media studies, research, and languages. You may also be adept at public speaking, because of your sharp mind, and your clear elocution.
Mercury Soft Jupiter
The planets Mercury and Jupiter are making positive contact in your birth chart indicating that you enjoy success in your education and communications with other people. Depending on other influences in your chart, you've the ability to think clearly and deeply, combining common sense with a cheerful outlook on life. These attributes can be put to good use in your studies, and you may choose to pursue an academic education. It's also possible that you prefer to learn through your own experiences. Either way you've a thirst for knowledge and delight in sharing your discoveries with other people. You've the ability to talk to people from all walks of life, and your ideas can be uplifting for other people. Others seem to find your candid and honest manner refreshing. For these reasons you may spend part of your life teaching, writing, lecturing or public speaking. You've big ideas and plans, and the ability to achieve many of your hopes and dreams.
Venus Soft Moon
You enjoy comfortable relationships with other people because of the favourable combination of the Moon and Venus in your birth chart. A charming and prudent person, you enjoy the company of other people, and they respond favourably. You're likely to enjoy success in your primary relationship, choosing someone who feels comfortable and companionable. You're also likely to benefit from your relationships with women.
Jupiter Hard Neptune
The planets Jupiter and Neptune are forming a difficult aspect in your chart indicating that you encounter difficulties early in life when expressing the creative side of your nature. It could be that you're not aware of your talents, or it could be that you're a dreamer who has trouble making practical moves to develop your abilities. Perhaps you're idealistic when it comes to assessing your options. The good news is that you're likely to overcome these difficulties as you mature. Whether you know it or not, you're a highly-talented individual. You're not necessarily a budding artist, but there's at least one area in your life in which you're creative. Of course you need to become aware of this talent before you can fully develop. You then need to acquire self-discipline if you're to make something of your gifts. Once you've made this discovery, whether it be in teaching, the arts, healing or spirituality, then you're capable of reaching for the stars. Your spiritual beliefs may also play a prominent role in helping you achieve your ambitions.
Jupiter Hard Pluto
The planets Jupiter and Pluto are making a difficult aspect in your birth chart indicating that you've some difficulty achieving your life goals, but you will get to where you want in the end. The problem is that you reject the usual paths to success, believing that you've a better way of doing things. Your attempts to change the rules, or to try to make others agree with your insights, are sincere, but intrusive. As a result you often land yourself in troublesome situations, which can lead to disillusionment and distract you from your purpose. This can dent your confidence. You range from over confidence to completely lacking in confidence. The truth lies somewhere in between. Society has rules to run itself efficiently, and these can be to your benefit rather than detriment. Once you accept your own and society's limitations then you can achieve your objectives.
Jupiter Square Neptune
"Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal." This quotation by author Ralph Vaull Starr could be the theme of your life right now. It is a time for dreaming, for reflection and for making the most of any opportunities that arise to enable you to follow your dreams.
Saturn Opposite Midheaven
With Saturn at the lowest part of your horoscope, home may have been full of rules and regulations. In this atmosphere it might have been difficult to know what you really wanted or needed. Therefore leaving home, moving interstate, emigrating abroad might be necessary in order to hear your true calling, away from the expectations and traditions of your upbringing. Whether the family atmosphere was strictly bound or had secure enough boundaries you have inherited a deep sense of responsibility and duty. Your life task is to make sure that this does not become obligation to others, but an inner sense of duty and responsibility to yourself. Your task is to set down secure enough foundations and boundaries in adult life to be able to support your vocation. Ultimately you are your worst critic but also your best advisor.
Neptune Soft Pluto
The planets Neptune and Pluto both move slowly through the zodiac, and therefore any connection between the two planets affects birth charts for a short period of time. You were born in such a time. This combination in your chart means that you're interested in opportunities to bring about fundamental change to human values. You are aware of injustices in society and, depending on other influences in your chart, may prefer to fight against them rather than sit back and accept the ills of society. Your creative urges may be linked to politics, or expressing your political views through the arts or spiritual or charitable organisations.
Neptune Conjunct NorthNode
With Neptune floating nearby your North Node your vocational pathway is enriched by your imaginative faculties and creative possibilities. Since youth you have heard the siren's call, drawing you into an enchanted world, not many can see, but one that has always been available to you. Upon entering this world you are engulfed with exalted feelings and transcendent thoughts that lift you up and inspire you. Therefore your invitation is to make your rich inner world a part of your vocation. In our disenchanted world this is no easy feat and it takes a heroic act to bring the sacred into the mundane. You struggle against the tide of what is the consensus reality, valuing what is often invisible to others and honouring what is subtle. Therefore it takes a great strength of spirit to pursue your artistry and vulnerability and not collapse under the sheer weight of the task.
It is not always an easy task to find the place for your Neptunian calling in the world. Vocationally there are two broad categories: one is the sphere of creativity immersing yourself in your imaginative faculties through art, music, literature while the other is to be engaged in helping whether that is as a physical healer, an emotional helper, a spiritual advisor or a psychological counsellor. Your task is to become one with what you do therefore, at times will feel lost in what you do and what you feel you should be doing. The goal is never clear and constantly shifts but more than anyone you know you want to find meaning and soul through you life work. You are ready to dedicate yourself and therefore have no choice but to go in the direction the river of life takes you. Be aware that whatever road you take you have a deep urge to be connected with your soulful essence which can be manifested through your compassion or your creativity. It is not the easiest route as the world does not provide a lot of avenues for this archetype to pursue, therefore call on Providence to assist. You need a muse to remind you of your calling to bring the other world into your everyday.
Pluto sextile Neptune
With Pluto Sextile Neptune, your life is enriched with opportunities presented by the Angels Metatron and Tamiel. Metatron has been called the King of Angels and the Chief of the Ministering Angels. This Angel is thought to be the pillar of fire the Jews followed in their exodus from Egypt. He is a certain link between you and the divine. Metatron's association with Tamiel, the Angel of Primordial Energies, is extremely powerful.
You undoubtedly experience supernatural events and conditions during your life. Your Angels provide this resource and can help you refine it. Psychic impressions and intuition become second nature to you after a while. You learn to act on intuition in much the same way you would act on advice from your accountant.
One facet of the path of personal integrity for you involves purification of your soul. This means elevating your thoughts above petty jealousy and anger. While you may never overcome negative thinking entirely, working with your Angels will lift you up, step by step, to thoughts of compassion and love. Love overcomes fear and compassion overcomes hatred.
One possible expression of this aspect of your birth chart is that you have at least one extrasensory ability. At first you may experience some confusion in interpreting psychic and intuitive information as it comes to you. You are likely to overcome this confusion once you develop the necessary comprehension of your abilities and thus develop your psychic skills. Meditation each day allows your Angels to contact you more directly to help in this area.
You have the power of a storyteller combined with the wisdom of a seer. You could write fiction or dramatic scripts, and your poetry can become the liquid fire of inspiration and soothing balm for the soul.
NorthNode Soft Pluto
You're on a quest to use your insights and personal experience to help others. This is because of the association of the North Node and the planet Pluto in your birth chart. You may encounter traumas during your lifetime, which will ultimately help to develop your resourceful nature.
SouthNode Soft Pluto
You've a tendency to become embroiled in the dramas and crises of life, whether they be real ones or in your imagination. This is because of the association of the South Node and the planet Pluto in your birth chart. It's true that you're familiar with the darker side of life: matters such as jealousy, malice, under-handed deals, abusive behaviour, criminal elements and depravation. Your challenge is to rise above the negativity, whether it's your own or other people's, and to use your insights and resources for the good of others. For instance you could prove skilled in the area of crisis counselling.
Chiron Conjunct Ascendant
At the moment of your birth the Centaur Chiron was rising on the eastern horizon marking its maverick influence on your personality. While this brand is often visible as a birthmark or birth scar, it is certainly psychologically evident in feelings of marginality and separateness. Abandonment and exclusion are often an aspect of this influence and you may have been literally separated at birth from family. Like mythological heroes you are set adrift to find your true calling to be heroic. In terms of your vocation, you are a maverick, champion of the underprivileged and a wise soul who will be drawn to healing and the betterment of others.
Chiron opposition Venus
This aspect does give you a completely unique taste in arts; such that it could lead you to create a whole new style or school of art, if you express the artiste within you. You find beauty in objects others may overlook, look down on, or close their eyes to. When it comes to personal value systems, yours is distinctly unique. Many people with this aspect follow their own path privately within society; others leave society altogether. For some there arises a personal imperative to show society where and how it is wrong to teach others about false values versus true values.
In relationships, you have many lessons to learn, and may find it difficult to remain in a lasting relationship. Part of the difficulty comes from a very basic Venus concept of self-worth. There is a deep wound within you that can cause you, at some level, to always compare your worth to that of other people, and often find yourself lacking by comparison. A major lesson that needs to be learned is to end the comparing, and to enjoy both your own unique worth, and the different but equally unique worth of others. Positively, you are the type of person that fights for the rights and the values you cherish. You are truly aghast at finding injustices, and will work to do something about them.
The potential here is for you to be a very caring, giving person, once you have come to terms with your own Venus (what you truly find as valuable, what you want to attract into your life). As you grow to like yourself, you will grow to become the type of person who will go out of their way to see that others have any opportunities they need. You will give the proverbial ‘shirt off your back’, if you feel that it really will do some good.
Everyone, male and female, has a feminine side, an anima or animus. With Chiron opposition Venus, there is a lot of pain deep within connected with this part of your nature. Any aspect between Chiron and Venus shows that there were major issues dealing with your sexual role, and/or your relationship with members of the opposite sex. When this aspect expresses negatively, it can be the most extreme case of being unable to deal with one’s own anima or animus as the case may be.
Perhaps you were if a male ridiculed for your feminine side as a child. Or perhaps you were not allowed to indulge in it. (I’ve seen, for example, cases where a male child was discouraged from doing things like painting, or enjoying poetry, made to feel these were ‘not appropriate’ for boys.) Another possibility is the other extreme, that you were judged for being too male, having too much ‘testosterone’, so to speak.
The healing begins when you embrace your feminine side, and find a way to balance it with your masculine side, bringing about wholeness. When the wound is really intense, I have seen some males with extreme ‘macho’ behaviour along with a lot of difficult relationships, and other males going in the exact opposite direction, becoming super-feminine and still having trouble with relationships.
Chiron opposition Mars
With Chiron opposition Mars, you have a deep wound that makes you feel the need to fight. How it manifests, what battles you choose depends first of all on how much you have been able to heal. For the need to fight was brought on very young, perhaps because you felt unjustly accused of something, perhaps because it was the only way to get what you felt was rightfully yours, perhaps because you felt attacked. In any case, there are some very deep wounds here, and a lot of pain and pent up anger (or even rage).
Whatever the cause, the Houses that these two bodies fall into on your chart will show where some of your greatest battles come from in life. The sign Mars falls in will describe your fighting style, while the sign Chiron is in will describe the type of situations that make you feel like fighting. One way you can tell that you are experiencing pent up anger from the old wound is if someone ‘touches your buttons’, and the anger you feel seems way out of proportion to what the situation should warrant. You need to work on this anger, find ways to release it (sports, for example, or chopping wood, or other physical activity, or therapy), as difficult as it may seem, learn to forgive those who hurt you. You don’t have to forget to heal, but you must find a way to forgive.
As you heal from your wounds, you feel motivated to go all out to fight for those less fortunate, or for those oppressed. But until you have begun the healing path, this fighter instinct may simply manifest as a strong feeling that you can improve your life by fighting. Some situations warrant fighting, of course, but healing for you is also learning how to choose your battles, and choose when not to fight.
There are major lessons to be learned here about your masculine side (whether you are male or female, you have both an anima and an animus), which hopefully, you have learned a good bit of early in life. If not, there may develop an overpowering need to assert the self, to the point that the overcompensation distorts your lifestyle.
One of the major lessons that you must learn is to be adaptable, to try new methods when they come along to experiment. Somehow, you were deeply wounded in a way that made you feel you needed to stick to a particular method of doing things, or at the very least, there is a fear of going in to uncharted waters.
So the lesson is that there are definitely times to go off in new directions, and when you learn this, the healing has begun. Some learn it early in life while others apparently never learn it.
Until the lesson is learned, the following is a common sequence of events: you find some method that works, some plan of action, but then tend to use it continually, getting into a rut (habit). After this goes on for a while, Chiron comes along and throws a wrench into the process, the success formula doesn’t work anymore, or it produces negative results. When this occurs, you may fall down, and fall hard! Even when you don’t actually fall, you are definitely thrown off-balance, and must reorient yourself. At this point in time, depending on how you have evolved past the wound, you will usually choose one of three alternatives.
1. Make an adjustment, and then go back to some routine method of doing things. If this approach is chosen you will once again have to go through the same process in the future, and again each time you refuse to learn. Eventually, this repeated stress can have an influence on the health, producing stress-related ills.
2. Learn part of the lesson. If this is the case, you learn the virtues of trying new methods, new ways of doing things, but not the ‘why’ of the lesson. You might begin to revel in each new method. You may seek out and try to experience every new act that can be found, every new experience and sensation that exists, perhaps even inventing brand new ones. If you continue along this course you will still be confronted with Chiron throwing a wrench into the act, but you will see it as just one more new experience, or as a temporary setback. Continued long enough, there is a danger of going to excess with destructive results.
3. You rise above your past wound, and learn to be adaptable. You learn to try new things, and learn to discriminate, so that you also know when the old methods are still valid. You use new ways of doing things when the time is right. You thus build up a broad repertoire of methods and experiences to draw upon, and will be seen by others as extremely resourceful and multi-talented. Should you turn this great personal energy towards helping others, you will find a knack for coming up with the right solution for each individual problem, and often have uncanny insight into what makes people tick. You welcome each new experience, seeing it as a means, not an end.
Chiron square Saturn
It is a rare person with this aspect who did not as a child have a great deal of difficulty with parents. Since this aspect seems to stay within orb for many years, it seems to represent more people, whole generations, rather than single individuals. Thus, a great many people came from homes where there was difficulty dealing with authority. This aspect expresses itself as a tendency to get set into some routine, or some effort to build a structure that is impervious to change. You have a clear-cut idea of reality, and while you might not like it, it is secure. But then Chiron comes along and throws you totally off your feet. You may easily feel that you have been zapped! The world picture is suddenly different from what you had thought it was, and reality must be drastically redefined. At this point, you have two options:
1. Allow fear to take over, withdraw, not knowing who or what to trust. You know that what you had counted on no longer works, but you fear looking for something that will work. The best thing you could do at this point would be to seek guidance, but it is a scary thing to do, and some people allow themselves to be almost crushed before seeking help.
2. This is the more positive expression. You recognize that it is up to you to put the pieces together to form a more coherent personal definition of reality. You pull yourself together, sometimes seeking assistance from a counsellor, psychologist or guru, and attempt to construct a more workable life system with a structure that will withstand whatever comes. At this point crucial decisions are made. You may go so far as to establish a new, tight, secure foundation for yourself, and then hide behind it. If this path is chosen, you will find that you must eventually go through the catastrophe all over again as you discover that the new reality is faulty, too. or, you may go to the extreme of disregarding conventions, structures, and any definition of reality altogether. You may become totally anti-authority. If you choose this route, you will also, one day, reach a critical point where everything collapses around you, only for you, it may eventually be the coming of a very heavy Saturn event (imprisonment, poverty, ostracism) causing a great loss of personal freedom. What this aspect is trying to teach you is a major lesson, but if you do not learn from such experience, the cycle can repeat.
The most positive path, however, is the acceptance of any definition of reality as temporary, and any structure as useful, but only as a means to an end. By learning to accept change, accepting authority as necessary to a particular situation (but not as all-powerful), accept that those in power are also human, you reach a great equilibrium. You can use Saturn when needed, and go beyond it when necessary. In fact, you can create your own structures to fit the occasion, and discard them when they’re no longer needed. One of the people with this aspect, Robin Williams, said it best as the title of his album, ‘Reality is a Crutch’.
Chiron opposition Uranus
Between 1952 and 1989 Chiron exactly opposed Uranus forty-one times, and was in orb of opposition for just about everyone born during those 47 years. Thus, it is more of a generational influence than an individual one.
Historically, you can see that this aspect is tied into the accelerated pace of scientific advancement during the second half of the Twentieth Century. Actually, one of the problems is that science is making discoveries faster than they can be integrated into society; even faster than proper safeguards can be devised for our protection from side effects and from the discoveries themselves.
This same ‘vibration’ is, in many ways, a part of the nature of individuals who have this aspect. There is a thirst for the new, for discovery, for experiences, that often outweighs the taking of any precautions. Others dare not try to curtail your freedom, the consequences may not be pleasant. The urge for independence can be so strong that it can create difficulties in relationships. The only relationships that truly last for someone with this aspect is one where each person is given a lot of space to be themselves, in truth, it is difficult to find someone sufficiently secure to give a partner that much freedom. It does give a real spirit, though.
The wound of the whole generation, though, can be summed up in the words, ‘fallen heroes’. For thousands of years, people had heroes to worship, people to look up to as almost godlike. But this generation has seen all of its heroes fall, or show very unheroic sides, or in one way or another, prove they are just like everyone else. As a result, your generation has had a wound that each person must learn to heal in his/her own way, but the lesson is to become one’s own hero to become the person you would like to look up to and respect.
Chiron sesquisquare Neptune
Because there are hosts of Angels directly involved with healing, assigning one Angel to Chiron is no simple task. In fact, the influence of Chiron in healing is similar to that of the Angelic hosts: this planet is a catalyst for healing energies within you, much as the Angelic hosts provide an atmosphere of healing within which you can work. However, the energy of Sariel resonates strongly with Chiron.
With Chiron sesquisquare Neptune, Sariel and Tamiel team up to show you how to move from a state of agitation to a state of restfulness and peace. When an Angel of healing meets the Angel of primordial energy, the potential for positive change is ignited within you. Your capacity to cleanse your body and mind of all impediments to health is greatly strengthened by this powerful duo.
Your capacity to heal reflects the partnership you can develop with your Angels. Two factors are important to note:
There is duality in everything. Any illness, discomfort, or mental aberration reflects one side of a polarity. On the other side you can find health, sanity, and satisfaction. Love casts out fear, for example. Pain can instill compassion. Emotional healing occurs when you go through your suffering instead of denying it. Angelic greetings traditionally have included the words, 'Fear not,' because the removal of fear from your consciousness creates suitable conditions for healing.
Physiology mirrors consciousness. As you learn the subtle connections between your belief, thoughts, and feelings and the physical body, you begin to see how positive, optimistic, creative thoughts produce healthy feelings, while negative, destructive, pessimistic thoughts create feelings of illness. You retain your free will, but your Angels create a condition in which you can more readily choose the enlightened path toward greater wellness.
Meditation can be painful for you at first because your body and mind are so used to rushing around every single moment. Take time to sit and meditate each day. Focus on your breath or on an object helps you gain a sense of space in which your healing can occur easily. Your Angels provide a bridge from your current state to one of greater intuitive understanding of wellness in your life.
Chiron square Midheaven
A square makes you easily dissatisfied with the ordinary circumstances of life. There are deep wounds connected with both parents (or whoever your authority role models were in childhood), as you were very sensitive to everything they said, as well as to any conflict or undercurrent of anger or dissension that passed between them. One parent, or perhaps both, made you feel you had little self-worth. You may have repeated memories of feeling let down by role models you looked up to. It may be because you were made to feel that you would never amount to something, or it may be that you were constantly made to feel that you must find the right career for yourself and nothing else would do,perhaps not having the right tools or knowledge needed to find this ideal profession. Part of your healing must involve recognizing that you are different than your parents were. That, to paraphrase Gibran, you are from them, but you are not them. No matter what type of relationship they had with each other, your relationships need not be anything like theirs. No matter how they made you feel (and it may have been unintentional on their part), should you become a parent, the way you treat your children need not be anything like the way you were treated.
A major lesson is that you must grow and evolve along your own path, no matter what they said, you ‘should’ or ‘shouldn’t’ do or become.
As a result of your low self-esteem it might take you a while to find what you want to do with your life. To make matters worse, the Midheaven is the most outward, public part of a person, which means that when you are experiencing pain it is extremely difficult to hide it from the outside world, it’s out in the open. Chiron is also square the opposite point, the Immum Coeli, so it is also extremely difficult to hide any pain you feel from your family.
But the more you heal, the more you desire to learn about yourself, and about the world, the more you learn, the more you heal. To some extent this means that you may be a student for your entire life.
Careers where it is important to remain secure, learning is where you will shine, where you can do something to help others heal in some way, physically, or emotionally, mentally, spiritually, or a career where you open minds, encouraging others to want to learn. So you could have a career as a healer, or you could be that teacher people remember because you made them want to explore the world after they left your class.