Sun Square Neptune

This is a confusing time during which you cannot fully comprehend the events in your life. Perhaps you are feeling a sense of loss right now, as well as the confusion. On the other hand you may be seeing a more spiritual thread in your life, helping you understand events. Subtle energies are at play right now. You would be wise to go with the flow. Clarity will come later.

Sun Hard Neptune

Your lack of confidence is likely to stand in your way in achieving your life goals. This is because the Sun is making a difficult aspect to the planet Neptune in your birth chart. You're a sympathetic and kind person, but you're apt to be overwhelmed by the injustices of the world. As a result you lose sight of your goals and become confused about your direction. It's also possible that you allow other people to tell you how to live your life. You're so eager to please others, that you find it difficult to assert your own rights and beliefs. At times like these you may benefit from moments of quiet reflection, or meditation, which enable you to develop an ability to rely on your own inner resources. It's possible that your confusion stems from childhood experience with your father, or a father figure. Perhaps this person was weak or ill and unable to support your development, or perhaps the death or absence of a father strongly influenced your life. Either way the result is that you've difficulty finding a firm footing on which to base your life as an adult. Your challenge is to learn to trust your own intuition, and to use your artistic and sensitive nature for the benefit of other people without losing yourself.

Sun Hard Moon

When the Sun and the Moon are combining unfavourably in your chart, it means that you're likely to have difficulty succeeding in life. You may have trouble in money matters, struggle with employment, and suffer at the hands of other people. You should be particularly wary of troublesome women, who could create obstacles to you achieving your goals. In some cases, this combination can also mean that you suffer from ill health, which further hinders your chances of success.

Sun Hard Pluto

The road to achieving your life goals is going to be tough because the Sun is making a difficult aspect to the planet Pluto in your birth chart. On a positive note you're a powerful and ambitious person, who enjoys rising to a challenge. You enjoy tackling difficult tasks, particularly the projects which other people have put in the too-hard basket. You're likely to succeed where others have failed, but the path will be strewn with obstacles. It could be circumstances which stand in your way. Perhaps your childhood was difficult, failing to provide you with the support needed for a successful adult life. It's possible that a dominant father figure blocked your success, perhaps even abusing himself or you in the process. As a result you're likely to experience strong emotions, possibly anger, when you reflect on your experiences. You can be explosive and unpredictable and have trouble controlling your emotions, feeling that the world is opposing your deepest wishes. Your challenge is to be powerful in the most positive sense of the word. This way you achieve your life goals without causing too much damage on the way!

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Moon Hard Uranus

The Moon and the planet Uranus are connected in your chart suggesting that your home life is unusual and changeable. It could be that you've difficulty settling down in one place, or that you live in extraordinary surroundings. In some way your family life is unusual. This isn't necessarily a negative experience, although it could be upsetting. Perhaps you, or a member of your family, have an unusual hobby which has taken over the household, or necessity requires that your family often changes residence. The erratic nature of your household probably stems from your childhood experiences. Perhaps your family was different from traditional families, or circumstances led to emotional upsets in the family home. It's possible that you suffered from a sense of insecurity as a child as a result of changing family life. Your mother, or an important mother figure, may have been an unusual or unstable influence in your early childhood. A continuing sense of a lack of security in your home and family may be a source of emotional distress, as you struggle to come to terms with conflicting emotions. However, you're a resourceful, inventive and independent person, and will eventually learn to blend your individual need for excitement and stimulation in the home environment with a need for comfort and security.

Mercury Soft Saturn

The planet Mercury is making favourable contact with the planet Saturn in your birth chart indicating that you've good intellectual abilities. Your mind is contemplative and profound, capable of concentration and comprehension. Therefore you're likely to shine in pursuits such as study, writing, publishing, lecturing, teaching, travelling, diplomacy, and business. You may be particularly interested in science, politics or medicine. You're fortunate to have good judgement and reasoning powers, as well as an excellent memory. You may have had difficulty expressing yourself as a child, but as an adult you're able to speak your mind in a logical and methodical manner. The saying "older and wiser" certainly applies in your case. You're a sensible person, able to make careful plans and carry them through to completion. Depending on other aspects in your chart you're more likely to take a traditional path in your education, rather than explore unchartered territory. The steady approach to education and communication suits you. You've the ability to become a voice of authority in your field of expertise, particularly a field which requires business acumen, good communication skills and common sense. In other words, you're capable of achieving whatever you set your mind to.

Mercury Soft Uranus

The planets Mercury and Uranus are connected in your birth chart indicating that you've an incisive and ingenious mind. You enjoy progressive topics in your studies and your communications with other people. In fact you may be ahead of your time in your thoughts, ideas and opinions. You're generally successful in your studies because you're able to communicate your original ideas with ease. Creativity and intuition are second nature. You're an independent thinker, who likes to be given the freedom to express your ideas. In fact woe betide anyone who tries to keep you quiet or change your mind. You make impulsive decisions, some would say rash, but generally speaking you tend to land on your feet. Your projects tend to reflect your individual flair, and stand out from the rest of the class or society. Writing, publishing, advertising, science, astrology and electrical affairs may all be of interest, although any unusual subject will catch your attention.

Mercury Soft Moon

The planet Mercury is associated with the Moon in your chart indicating you've a quick wit, and a sharp and penetrating mind. Depending on other influences in your chart, you're likely to excel in any studies, but particularly in communications, media studies, research, and languages. You may also be adept at public speaking, because of your sharp mind, and your clear elocution.

Venus Hard Uranus

The planets Venus and Uranus are combining unfavourably in your chart indicating that you're restless and often lack commitment in your personal relationships. This can lead to disappointments and complications in love and marriage, particularly in your early adult life. It's also possible that your roving eye can lead to scandal. You're wilful and often perceive your primary partnership as demanding too much time and effort, an obstacle to your freedom of self-expression. You seek spontaneity and intellectual stimulation from your primary relationship. Unless other influences contradict this aspect of your birth chart, commitment is not a major part of your vocabulary, and can be something that you tend to avoid, preferring to be "footloose and fancy free". This isn't to say that you don't have many offers. Quite the contrary. Your bright and magnetic personality attracts potential life partners like moths to a flame, but you prefer to keep your options open rather than be pinned down. Depending on other aspects in your chart you may be satisfied with a gypsy-like approach to relationships. You may also like intrigue and secrecy in your relationships, perhaps even taking part in a secret organisation. However, if other influences are calling for commitment and permanency in a primary partnership, then you need to choose a partner who is able to give you plenty of freedom. You're more suited to an unconventional relationship. You also need to learn to compromise, restrain some of your wilder urges, and enjoy your partner's unique contribution to your life. It's possible that the restless side of your nature is more prominent in relationships which have formed through friendship or through fleeting attraction rather than through true love. With the right person, you're able to develop your talents and strengths in a positive and supportive relationship.

Mars Hard Saturn

Conflict is likely to be a key feature of your life because of the influence of the planets Saturn and Mars in your chart. When these combine in an unfavourable manner it leads to troubles and discord. You're probably well aware of the difficulties that you face in some areas of your life, finding it difficult to motivate yourself to overcome them. Other people and circumstances seem to stand in the path of your success, which is frustrating. In some cases you could be frustrated by a physical illness, which prevents you working towards your ambitions. It's true that you shouldn't neglect your physical health, because you could be prone to illness and harm through accidents. You may find that resentment and thoughts of revenge are ways in which you motivate yourself into action. Of course you would do well to avoid acting on these feelings, otherwise you could end up in violent disputes or in trouble with the law. This influence in your chart can indicate achieving notoriety, which is very different from achieving success. It's possible that you've difficulty remembering a time when life didn't have its problems. Perhaps you had a tough life as a child either through difficult family circumstances or because of a strict and harsh parent figure. Of course much of this scenario depends on other influences in your chart. On a more positive note you're confident and ambitious, capable of driving yourself and others to achieve your objectives. You can be motivated by the thought of achievement, and are likely to succeed through hard work and self-discipline. In fact you're determined to succeed in certain areas of your life. Your will power can be indomitable, particularly when you've determined on a course of action.

Mars semisextile Neptune

With Mars Semisextile Neptune, difficult moments of growth take on more creative meaning because of Samael and Tamiel. Samael is the Angel of Temptation. The gift in this Angelic energy is the power to market yourself and your ideas to others. Tamiel is the Angel of Dreams. Here you find the words and images, the touch and smell that entice others to buy or buy into your schemes.

Spirituality provides a regulator for your feelings and passions. While you definitely want to be successful, the aim is to do so without causing harm to anyone else. Therefore your Angels help you to be persuasive only after finding out what the other person wants or needs.

Sometimes you feel the urge to express yourself in a particular artistic medium. Although you may not sustain this interest long enough to develop expertise, your artistic efforts are deeply satisfying to you and they may grace your home or office, or the homes of family members. If you continue to produce works of art, you may gain a following.

A weakness is the tendency to consider harming others. You may have destructive thoughts, but you never need to act on them. Your Angels help you to channel your energies toward compassion instead of harm.

Another weakness is susceptibility to drugs and alcohol. Here again your meditations with the Angels help you to avoid unnecessary drug use, and to moderate use when drugs are prescribed.

A great strength is your inspired ability to plan grand ventures and then to see them through to completion. Any feelings of inferiority dissipate when you are fully engaged in a project. You magnetically attract just the right people to help you get things under way and approach your goals with few side trips or distractions.

The extent of your compassion is unlimited. As you deepen your awareness of Angelic presence, compassion flows from you to all living things, including the planet itself.

Mars Soft Neptune

If anyone needed to experience quiet and reflective moments in life, then it's you. The combination of the planets Mars and Neptune is urging you to "slow down and smell the roses" on a regular basis. This could be spending time in nature, listening to inspirational music, swimming in the ocean or sitting in a quiet house of prayer; any activity which provides emotional and physical rest and soothes the soul. If you don't schedule in quiet time then you're likely to suffer from lethargy and despondency, and possibly even physical illness. Escaping to a world of fantasy and contemplation is much more rewarding than other means, such as alcohol or drugs. And your chart is saying that you do need moments of escape. It's also possible that you have either a strong artistic or spiritual side to your nature, which motivates many of your actions. Your hobbies or career may reflect your spiritual or artistic interests. Your spirituality could be either orthodox or liberal. The artistic side of your nature may benefit from activities such as art, theatre, dance, music, design, film and craft work. You may also be inspired by sports such as swimming, tai chi, karate or kung fu.

Jupiter Soft Uranus

The planets Jupiter and Uranus are making a positive aspect in your birth chart suggesting that you're enthusiastic about new ideas and are always keen to learn about different subjects, whether through study or experience. At times your enthusiasm knows no bounds, leading you in to unexplored territory. This can be exciting and a little frightening! You've an enormous ability and energy to achieve your goals, which are likely to be linked to your belief in making a positive contribution to society. These goals may or may not be realistic, depending on your circumstances and other influences in your birth chart. It's possible that you can contribute to a grand-scale beneficial scheme, but you would also do well to remember that each individual's life can have a positive effect on the world. You've a tendency to be grandiose, and don't take well to being restricted by other people or circumstances. Fortunately your inventive nature means that you can adapt to most circumstances, rather than forcing conflict. Traditional or unorthodox religious beliefs could play a major role in motivating your life goals, and helping you achieve your objectives. Metaphysics, astrology, and science may also prove your forte.

Saturn Hard Mars

An unfavourable combination of the planets Saturn and Mars can indicate difficulties in your profession, particularly in partnerships or companies. You need to be careful to avoid litigation, which you're like to lose. Of course this depends largely on other influences in your chart. Nevertheless you need to act with the utmost integrity within your career to ensure success rather than scandal.

Saturn Hard Neptune

The planets Saturn and Neptune are combining in your chart suggesting that you've difficulty achieving your career ambitions. It's likely that you're a highly creative individual, but that you either lack the confidence to follow your true path, or the ability to make your dreams a reality. This doesn't necessarily mean that you aren't successful in your career, but rather that something is missing. It could be that you're dissatisfied with your career choice, because you're not following your true vocation. It's also possible that you enjoy your work, but aren't being paid well, which leads to frustration and disappointment. No matter how much other people urge you to stand up for your rights, you believe that you're not in a position to do so. The problem may be that you've difficulty stepping back and appropriately assessing all of your options. You lack the confidence to pave your own professional path, afraid to leave the security and comfort of your current job, or you're too busy chasing rainbows to manage your career. At some stage in your life you're forced to learn to believe in yourself, to find the right mix of creativity and practicality. Once you've made steps along this process you gain the confidence to continue. Like a child learning to walk for the first time, you're soon off and running.

Saturn opposition Neptune

With Saturn Opposing Neptune, you experience structured cooperation between Kafziel and Tamiel. Kafziel is the Angel of memory, solitude, and tears. Together these Angels put you on the path of personal integrity as surely as you follow one thought with another.

Your slow growth of understanding could be seen as a weakness. However, your path is one of steady, almost certain forward progress. You analyze and consider each decision and each new idea. In this way every step is firm and solid, not tentative or half-hearted.

Intelligent activity becomes part of your nature. Intelligent activity involves the skillful use and application of knowledge, so you must first gain knowledge before you can apply it effectively. Kafziel and Tamiel work in concert in your life by first supplying the means to learn, and then aiding your mind through dreams or visualizations of how to use the information you have gained.

As you allow your Angels into your life, you gain the capacity to maintain hope in the face of seeming disaster. You discover that even in the most difficult circumstances, you have Angelic protection, and you can find a way to work your way out of the problem.

These Angels help you learn how to manage pain. When you or someone else experience severe physical or emotional pain, your Angels provide the means for relieving its severity, as well as providing the path to resolving it altogether.

Zadkiel and Tamiel provide dreams to help you through life's difficulties. You have tenacity of spirit, and your Angels support its use. Sometimes you will have a conscious idea, and you work step by step to make that dream a reality. Other times dreams provide very direct messages about your life. Either way, your mental strength is a special ally throughout your life.

Saturn Conjunct Midheaven

Saturn's tendency towards perfection and excellence is highlighted in your horoscope, as this planet was near its culmination at the time of your birth. Professions encouraging the need for quality, responsibility, autonomy and precision can channel some of this energy. However it is imperative to consider your own standards of excellence and not be driven to over achievement as a compensation for not feeling good enough. Focus your critical faculties onto work, not the self; discriminate your personal ambitions from the goals others might set for you. Destiny has given you the role of the elder and called on you to be an authority and a model for others to emulate.

Uranus sesquisquare Neptune

With Uranus Sesquiquadrate Neptune, agitation and stress due to confusion are eased through your connection to Zadkiel and Tamiel. Zadkiel is the Angel of Death, and Tamiel of Dreams. Together they extend your understanding of the nature of life and its limits. They also reveal the many ways you can change your life through skillful action.

You have a natural love of ritual. You find, when you think about it, that ritual pervades everything you do. You get along with other people very well because you observe the steps of ritual, entering into each conversation, activity, or association according to socially or culturally defined rules, and in so doing you put other people at ease without undo fuss or bother.

You can develop subconscious talents through conscious expression. In concert with your Angels, you express little pieces of your subconscious awareness in conversation or action. As you do this, you affirm your less conscious abilities and honor them and your Angels. Then your mind is better able to provide ideas and feelings to aid your work.

Inspired idealism may not be what you think you have been looking for, but you are certain to find it eventually. Your Angels send you dreams and ideas all the time, and you have only to pay attention to them. Your idealism provides a foundation for you to help others who experience major disasters or transformations in their lives. When you or others experience loss, your Angels are ready and willing to lift you up.

A potential weakness is the lack of stamina. Physical exercise to build lung capacity and muscle strength is well worth the effort. The physical strength you gain provides a foundation for emotional and spiritual strength.

For mental strength, meditation or yoga provide an organized practice. Kundalini yoga provides a medium for mental focus as well as physical exercise, building all the structures you need to support your developing psychic awareness.

Another possible weakness of structure could lead to high blood pressure and its associated ailments. The above mentioned exercise, meditation, and yoga all serve to reduce blood pressure and strengthen the system so as to avoid dangers of stroke and heart ailments.

Heightened psychic states including clairvoyance are the norm for this combination.

Uranus Hard Neptune

The planets Uranus and Neptune are combining in your chart suggesting that you're concerned about spiritual matters and try hard to bring about social change. You've an ideal of how the world could be, and yet have difficulty living up to your own standards. Perhaps you're being too idealistic, or perhaps you lack the discipline needed to fully explore your creative talents. Either way you need to develop a more realistic approach to creative matters. This way you'll be able to enjoy explore your talents, which may lie in writing, healing, social welfare, healing or spiritual fields. You're keen to explore metaphysical matters, perhaps even belonging to a secret society or a group dedicated to global healing, charity or spirituality. Your psychic abilities and intuition are likely to be heightened, and this may help you explore your creativity.

Neptune Opposite Midheaven

With Neptune on the lower meridian of your horoscope, the ideal of the family is important to you. However the reality may have been quite different as enmeshment, sacrifice, relinquishment or illness could have dominated the familial atmosphere. Whatever your experience of the family was, it is important to remember that emotional understanding, compassion for others in the family and the community at large, as well as the urge to serve others are all part of your inheritance. To build a solid nest in your adult life creativity, spirituality and imagination need to be the foundation stones. With this strong base you are better equipped to support your vocational longing in the world.

Neptune Square NorthNode

In your horoscope Neptune forms a right angle to the Nodal Axis. Traditionally this is often a testing aspect; however, when aspecting the Nodal Axis, Neptune has a unique function to play in terms of your vocation. An established way to think about this aspect is to place Neptune at the bending in the cycle, a time when a change of course is imminent. Therefore in terms of the course of your vocation it is necessary to face your own spiritual and creative needs.

This suggests that you will be challenged to continuously re-imagine your vocation in order to feel fulfilled by what you do. When your life direction becomes run of the mill or you feel your vocational path does not provided enough creative sparks or spiritual sustenance you will feel moved to seek out some soulful nourishment. While it may be difficult to inject some creativity or spirituality into your job, it is necessary for you to introduce this into your life or you will feel haunted by a sensation of purposelessness. This can be done in numerous ways; a few suggestions might be volunteer work for the needy or underprivileged, an art or photography class, playing music, following a spiritual discipline, a rendezvous with the imagination through dream work or Tarot, or an engagement with the soul through a form of devotion. When you feel fulfilled in this aspect of your life you are better able to know how to infuse your work with meaning and soul. However you invite the creative spirit into your life is not the issue; it is the fact that you need to in order to find fulfillment that is critical. And once you are able to do that you feel that you have turned a corner in your life, bending towards a more authentic way to follow your life path. It is important that you channel your creative imagination, as without a structure for it you may find that you are bypassing your vocation.

NorthNode Soft Mars

The North Node and the planet Mars are combining to suggest that you're being challenged to become assertive and focussed on your personal goals. Independence and self-confidence are keys to your growth in this life, and you may find yourself thrust into leadership roles.

SouthNode Soft Mars

The South Node and the planet Mars are combining to suggest that you may experience difficulty being assertive and finding the drive to succeed, or alternatively you may have a tendency to misdirect your energies. Your current life lesson is to express your energy positively and assertively. Your talent for independent action needs to be developed so that you can achieve your purpose.

Chiron square Neptune

The wound from this aspect stems from not being able to pay attention to your dreams. The environment you grew up in forced you to repress, or discount your dreams, or place them on the back burner. Perhaps you were even laughed at for your wild imagination.

To heal this wound, you need to allow yourself to believe in your dreams again, to get in touch with your imagination. The wound may have gone so deep that it gave you a fear of the unknown, fear of what you cannot see, hear, taste, smell or touch. You must find a way to give yourself permission to open up to what lies beyond the senses, what lies outside the realm of apparent reality. Otherwise, you may find yourself with a tendency to go overboard into the real world then to submerge yourself into material things, in order not to have to deal with the unknown.

Healing from this wound, the most common expression is the tendency to have some dream that is totally you, some image of the ideal self that is the way you want to be and then to believe totally that you can be this. The magic of believing in yourself.

This aspect does not denote success or failure at achieving this dream, only the very strong belief that this is what you could be. There is also, if the aspect is strongly emphasized, a desire to overcome any obstacle that interferes with your understanding of life or of the universe. Even if you have not begun to heal from the wound, there is a curiosity deep within that never completely is broken. You crave understanding, hunger to know what the meaning of life is; the more you heal, the more you allow yourself to explore, to search for truth, and to imagine possible worlds, possible alternate futures.

Chiron opposition Sun

There is usually a deep wound here when it comes to fairness and/or equality, to the point that you felt the need to prove you are ‘as good as’ others. It may be that you always had to defend yourself in one way or another, or it may be that you were made to feel that you had to ‘win’ at all costs.

One major lesson you can learn from this aspect is when to compete, when not to! learn how to choose your battles.

This aspect can make you a real fighter, which can be for good or bad. If you see something that you feel needs change, or an obstacle that needs to be overcome, you won’t rest until you’ve ‘won’. This may be a physical fight, but this doesn’t necessarily make you a physical fighter (other aspects in the chart would show that). What this aspect does do is make you appear always ready to take up a banner, always ready to take up a cause.

As you grow, and heal from the wound, any particular cause you are drawn to will be for the betterment of life, or to help others in some way. But if you resist healing, there can develop the feeling you need to fight even for small things, or there can develop a paranoia giving you an ‘us versus them’ attitude. Even as you evolve and grow, the urge to ‘do battle’ is never dissipated, but as I said, you learn to choose your battles. With this aspect, though, you never feel more alive than when you respond to a challenge in some way, or offer a challenge to someone else.

One thing that cannot, unfortunately, be avoided with this aspect is the making of enemies. It goes with the territory. But as you grow, and heal, you will find that even your enemies will respect you.

It is impossible to have this aspect without developing strong principles, and of course, to feel the need to stand up and fight for them as well. You will not sacrifice your principles to appease others.

But other people are important to you, not just for competition. You understand yourself so much better when you have feedback from others, and are always looking for another perspective, another viewpoint.

Chiron trine Mars

As you were growing up, the unexpected seemed to happen to you in areas of life that you thought you knew, had taken for granted. These unexpected events test your Mars. There may be tests of your assertiveness, or tests of your stamina, or tests of your ability to attack a problem, or even tests of your ability to take the first step in some new situation. With Chiron in trine to any astrological concept, unexpected lessons arise because humans usually feel comfortable with areas 120° away from a planet, we feel we can express ourselves freely there, and that we can take the area for granted that it is never going to pose a challenge. But Chiron reacts differently here than any other type of trine. There can be a deep wound because you were too resistant to change, or too closed off on trying something new, or did not know how to deal with changes in areas you took for granted and you were criticized or judged for this by others.

Doors may have opened up in areas in where you had no idea there were any doors. Since Chiron in trine teaches one not to take anything for granted, the lesson, once learned, gives you the ability to look into places others ignore, to try methods others would not expect to be valid (too commonplace, or too ordinary, or simply not ‘worthy’ of consideration). (When you come up with a new procedure, others might find themselves saying, “Now why didn’t I think of that, it was right in front of me all the time?”).

But until you learn to be open to change, willing to keep an open mind to the unexpected, you may find yourself feeling very insecure, and when these unexpected doors are open you may react with fear, or even by becoming defensive. If you have not learned to be open, there can be a tendency to try to erect barriers in the areas influenced by Chiron, to try to shield Mars from the unexpected. These barriers are major hindrances to your drives, your self-expression, because Mars needs new perspectives to grow. What can happen is that your ability to take appropriate action may deteriorate, or you may find your choice of action and/or method erratic or even anti-social. The unexpected events none-the-less occur (in a context made less favourable by your defensive reactions) but the tendency, because of the walls you have built up, is to become even more defensive. This vicious circle will continue until you see that you .must tear the walls down. This often happens with the help of someone in the role of guru or healer, or it may happen (spontaneously) when Chiron makes a hard aspect by transit to its natal position.

As you heal, this aspect gives you the ability to always see glimpses of innovations you can make, improvements you can add, even when you are not looking for them. It is almost as though there is some sentinel in your unconscious always on the lookout for new breakthrough opportunities, even while your conscious mind is content with working with what you have at hand. In other words, once you learn the lesson that nothing is absolute, no area is free from change, you become a seeker of the very types of changes you once feared. On a positive level, therefore, you are an innovator, seemingly able to open new doors with little effort. When you make a deliberate effort to research problems, you seem to be able to make obstacles almost melt away. When hard work is required, you are usually willing to devote much energy to the tasks at hand.

Chiron square Saturn

It is a rare person with this aspect who did not as a child have a great deal of difficulty with parents. Since this aspect seems to stay within orb for many years, it seems to represent more people, whole generations, rather than single individuals. Thus, a great many people came from homes where there was difficulty dealing with authority. This aspect expresses itself as a tendency to get set into some routine, or some effort to build a structure that is impervious to change. You have a clear-cut idea of reality, and while you might not like it, it is secure. But then Chiron comes along and throws you totally off your feet. You may easily feel that you have been zapped! The world picture is suddenly different from what you had thought it was, and reality must be drastically redefined. At this point, you have two options:

1. Allow fear to take over, withdraw, not knowing who or what to trust. You know that what you had counted on no longer works, but you fear looking for something that will work. The best thing you could do at this point would be to seek guidance, but it is a scary thing to do, and some people allow themselves to be almost crushed before seeking help.

2. This is the more positive expression. You recognize that it is up to you to put the pieces together to form a more coherent personal definition of reality. You pull yourself together, sometimes seeking assistance from a counsellor, psychologist or guru, and attempt to construct a more workable life system with a structure that will withstand whatever comes. At this point crucial decisions are made. You may go so far as to establish a new, tight, secure foundation for yourself, and then hide behind it. If this path is chosen, you will find that you must eventually go through the catastrophe all over again as you discover that the new reality is faulty, too. or, you may go to the extreme of disregarding conventions, structures, and any definition of reality altogether. You may become totally anti-authority. If you choose this route, you will also, one day, reach a critical point where everything collapses around you, only for you, it may eventually be the coming of a very heavy Saturn event (imprisonment, poverty, ostracism) causing a great loss of personal freedom. What this aspect is trying to teach you is a major lesson, but if you do not learn from such experience, the cycle can repeat.

The most positive path, however, is the acceptance of any definition of reality as temporary, and any structure as useful, but only as a means to an end. By learning to accept change, accepting authority as necessary to a particular situation (but not as all-powerful), accept that those in power are also human, you reach a great equilibrium. You can use Saturn when needed, and go beyond it when necessary. In fact, you can create your own structures to fit the occasion, and discard them when they’re no longer needed. One of the people with this aspect, Robin Williams, said it best as the title of his album, ‘Reality is a Crutch’.

Chiron opposition NorthNode

The South Node represents what one already knows from memories retained in the unconscious of past life experiences, a storehouse of information to draw upon. The problems occur when a person dwells in the areas represented by the South Node, instead of drawing strength from them to use as they focus on the North Node experiences which lead to growth. Some feel that the South Node represents karmic experiences, knowledge learned in previous lives. But even if you do not believe in reincarnation, the South Node should be a source of strength, but not a place to reside.

Those who have Chiron conjunct South Node have difficult lessons to learn. There have been some serious, painful past experiences in your life. Chiron here initially can result in the blame game. Problems you have as an adult are ascribed to a strange or terrible childhood, and there is a reluctance to try working them out. When you are under stress, the tendency is to fall back on this excuse, or begin to act in an erratic manner, allowing Chiron’s maverick nature to come out in its most negative expression. The primary lesson is to understand, forgive, and let go. Those who do not learn it tend to fall back upon their past.

The lesson is to move on from the past, not let it rule you. As I said, the South Node has experiences to draw upon, and use. As you heal, you can draw upon your hurtful past, as it taught you a lot then you can move forward. As you do, you begin to share their unique insight with others. You learn to integrate Chiron and it is so much a part of your nature that you can draw upon it whenever another is in need of being helped. You aim your sights at the North Node and seem to attract people who can be helped by your Chiron.

On one level or another, as you heal, you can become a healer yourself. Carl Jung said that only someone who has been wounded can heal others, and if you have a lot of strength you can draw upon to do just that.